Bro.....I do agree with QuadSweep that you need a timetable. You're still 165-169lbs. You need to find the cause of this, and attack it at the root to beat this thing. It is like you set a timetable, then make some progress, then regress. I wish you'd at least run this by a professional and ensure you're getting the best advice you can get. and then use the board as support.
I've said up fron I'll support you through this.....but again, I am not trained in the area of eating disorders/OCD etc etc.
The fact that you think those pics you posted on Anabolic Review look 'faded' and 'bloated' tells me that you aren't seeing yourself how others see you. I could pick out every muscle and insertion point, and they look like shitty cell phone pics with piss poor lighting....."faded" is the last thing that came to mind, lol
I say this......Jan 1 you weigh 175 or you seek counseling....THEN Mar. 15, you weigh 190 or seek counseling.....THEN June 1 you weigh 205 or seek counseling......sound fair?? or at the least cruise above 185.
Come on, man...you're a big dude...you're not supposed to weigh 165lbs....you're 6'2" with a big frame.....look at the size of your mitts in those pics, I say right now set up bpdyweight goals for every 8 week block or 12 week block, if you don't meet them, abort mission and see a Doc and beat this thing.
There is no way you're not gonna look better and feel better somewhere between 200-225lbs and be lean enough for your liking to boot. Even if you bagged bodybuilding, you should still weigh at least 190lbs to start feeling like your normal self again.