Anybody that works out, and knows how to manipulate their diet, which is most of us, realize that we have the power to make these changes to our own bodies. You are exhibiting the SAME behavior as a grossly obese person, who continues to stuff himself and is deaf to good advice. You ignore the very words that would give you what you want. An obese person has a million reasons, genetics, big-boned, whatever, and the more intelligent they are, the more reasons they can come up with to convince themselves that they can't control this. Bodybuilding isn't about letting yourself self destruct, it is just the opposite. Take control, seek professional help, take the steps necessaryto be who you want to be. Life is too short for this torture that you are putting yourself through. You have frustrated the best advisors here, and BigT should be nominated for sainthood.Most of us have seen the results of a good diet and strength programs and they are supposed to have good endings. You are pissing us off because you are sabotaging yourself!