velvett
sound advice, i really appreciate your thoughts, but it\'s been long, i\'ve been very strict with myself for what seems like forever
i do lack muscle, trying to gain any seems to diminish my earlier weightloss
i know i\'ve gotta build up muscle, but in my mind the heavier the scales tell me i am, the lower my self esteem goes
i\'ve been focused on losing weight, gaining (despite it being muscle) seems like a setback to me
i feed off the scales, any loss further strengthens my determination, even slight gains depresses me and i can\'t put as much effort into doing what i should if i feel like shite
i know b is fantastic, a great achievement, but i don\'t want to become complacent, i look nowhere near i\'d hoped to be so i must stay focussed, there\'ll be time to ponder later, right now i need keep running cos i aint done yet, by a long-stretch
the shadow
lol, with great difficulty!
that was the major drawback i hadn\'t foreseen
let me explain the tub
it\'s a 10litre stainless steel pot which i placed about wrapped in clingfilm, then foil then sealed off with celotape then placed in 2 heavy duty rubble refuse sacks and then sealed the lot with more celotape then covered with a blanket lol
while trying to get the 5g, i made a slit in the top, thinking the smaller the escape route, the better
of course the working enviroment meant i needed to get up close and personal, and due to 3kg of silica being placed over the 1kg of dnp, i had to roll it on it\'s side..
needless to say dust had a party
should\'ve brought the pre packeted stuff indeed
i make my own beauty cream so have many sized measuring utensils, in particular the 5g sized measuring spoon
i brought a cap m quik and 1000 vegetable capsules
didn\'t buy a scale, didn\'t think i\'d need it
didn\'t sign for it, it came via my chemical contact manufacturing guy, he knows i\'m not a business so sends me my stuff by speedpost, not using his regular carrier
laxative = i\'ve been eating one meal a day (small) and limiting fluids, i\'ve now upped my water intake but, my system won\'t be used to the dnp diet, i foresaw constipation and wanted to avoid that
i read you only get loose stools if you\'re electrolyte depleted or have some imbalance going on
(wow, lol.. i\'m being interrogated haha)
i made it in our spare (storage) room and had 4 of those water purifier units going, window (at the time) wasn\'t open
aside from decorating myself, the room looks fine
i could be a criminal, you\'d never know what went down in there
plus, someone said to throw the cap m quik away cos it\'d be toast, mine never even looked yellow (no pores i suspect) it now looks like new
i mixed the dnp with cornstarch
heatherrae
i don\'t have anorexia, but to lose weight i have to be hungry all the time. never made myself sick, don\'t gorge on food (lol, now eyes are rolling, i mean when and why i was fat)
Sassy69
allot of people fast, some drink nothing but water for over 40 days, i couldn\'t handle the saltwater flush, just drank lots of juice and took a laxative (as you\'re meant to) tea at night
musclemom
118 pounds
Varga
lol, i was logged in but was at that time capping the dnp
please pm me the info, i haven\'t read it
Sassy69
haha lol
i have a tendency to tangent too
i hear what you\'re saying
and it\'s good advice, but there are instances each day people should do the right thing but don\'t
i admit, dieting has worn me out, i feel lasy and miserable, i don\'t do drugs, don\'t enjoy my food anymore, what have i got left
i just wanna get there [points to the image of skinny fit me - in my mind lol] then stay there (with guidance) not have this current achievement being the pinnacle before i fall off the wagon
Sassy69
re: last ditch effort
well, i\'ve kinda figured i\'m not getting anywhere fast this way, dnp will be my key to success
after dropping the weight and feeling better, i\'ll knuckledown and get the training plus diet support i need and also stop watching the scales so much
dnp is my pick me up, like drinking a lucozade so the triathlete can complete the marathon stretch, if that makes sense
the-short-one
lol, i have a constant belly pouch, i could\'ve sucked it in and lied but why bother
i\'m not toned up, everything is soft and my body acts like a sponge
truthfully it\'s easy for me to gain weight, pig out for a fews days and i\'ll be a stone up then itll be killer tae-bo sessions and a snack as my main meal to drop it again
nefertiti
thanks for the advise, but i\'m unhappy only because the effort is so taxing, if i\'d jumped into the ultimate fatloss program and been consistent i\'d probably not be here now, but my body must be different, it laughs in the face of ordinary and normal methods, i had to go extreme to give it a wake-up call
years of bad eating and being a couch potatoe, plus with everyone in my family being on the chunky side it may well be a genetic predisposition
or at least i like to believe i need work 10x harder than anybody else because i\'m not physically meant to be under a certain weight, as i am now
wow, page 3 done.. hopefully there\'s only one post on page 4! lol
just kidding, i feel humbled that so many strangers care
hugs to everybuddy
xxx