That sucks, V. I'm sorry. I've been there and it feels horrible so I understand what you're saying. We tend to think that men always want to have sex, and when they turn us down, or never initiate, we take it personally and blame ourselves. We feel like freaks. We feel guilty for asking and wanting what we need. We feel rejected. Then self esteem can start to plummet. At least that's what happened to me. I would begin to go back over things I had said or done, what I had done, what was wrong with me...
Sex is important to me. I need to be touched by the person I'm with. I have to have it; I need it. It's not about getting off. It's about getting close.