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MortalCreed
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Hello everyone,
I wanted to ask people here for advise. I am a 22 year old male standing at 6 foot tall and 190 pounds. I started my first steroid cycle about 3 weeks ago and I have gained 13 pounds so far.
The reason i wanted to ask for advise is I want to compete in bodybuilding and love lifting which got me interested in gear. I was mostly frustrated because I have been lifting consistently and eating for 5 years now only to make it to around 177 bulked. I then decided to make the jump on gear. The first thing I did before hand is get my blood tested. after they drew the blood I started my cycle that night. 2 days later they sent me the results and my natural testosterone was at 229 ng/dl which is far below normal especially for my age. That same day I felt the effects of the ethanate in me and my lifetime depression literally left me. that day and I actually had motivation in life and energy. My whole life I was diagnosed with ADD and depression and anxiety and given all these terrible medications with terrible sides.
I feel like a completely new person now. I can actually gain weight and oddly enough my sex drive went down. I had an almost uncontrollable sex drive on low T and now it doesn't torture me like it used to. My backne has cleared up and a shoulder injury completely healed up.
So here is where my question comes in. I am upset that I am plainly just not capable of producing testosterone naturally. I wanted to cycle off at the end but if I do that I go back to depression and everything else. The best option looks like blasting and cruising or at least cruising forever. The issue with that is im worried my balls will dissapear and wont be able to have kids someday. Should I be doing HCG treatments frequently? I just feel stuck and unsure what to do. Especially with such low T I would just lose all gains from the cycle anyway. The oil I was prescribed is more painful and worse then the black market stuff I got and more expensive.
My most recent injection hurts a lot even though I aspirated it feels very inflamed. I can hardly sit which leads me to believe I may be allergic to the carrier oil. Im debating doing a shoulder next because my butt hurts so bad.
What do you guys think? Any advise?
thanks guys.
I wanted to ask people here for advise. I am a 22 year old male standing at 6 foot tall and 190 pounds. I started my first steroid cycle about 3 weeks ago and I have gained 13 pounds so far.
The reason i wanted to ask for advise is I want to compete in bodybuilding and love lifting which got me interested in gear. I was mostly frustrated because I have been lifting consistently and eating for 5 years now only to make it to around 177 bulked. I then decided to make the jump on gear. The first thing I did before hand is get my blood tested. after they drew the blood I started my cycle that night. 2 days later they sent me the results and my natural testosterone was at 229 ng/dl which is far below normal especially for my age. That same day I felt the effects of the ethanate in me and my lifetime depression literally left me. that day and I actually had motivation in life and energy. My whole life I was diagnosed with ADD and depression and anxiety and given all these terrible medications with terrible sides.
I feel like a completely new person now. I can actually gain weight and oddly enough my sex drive went down. I had an almost uncontrollable sex drive on low T and now it doesn't torture me like it used to. My backne has cleared up and a shoulder injury completely healed up.
So here is where my question comes in. I am upset that I am plainly just not capable of producing testosterone naturally. I wanted to cycle off at the end but if I do that I go back to depression and everything else. The best option looks like blasting and cruising or at least cruising forever. The issue with that is im worried my balls will dissapear and wont be able to have kids someday. Should I be doing HCG treatments frequently? I just feel stuck and unsure what to do. Especially with such low T I would just lose all gains from the cycle anyway. The oil I was prescribed is more painful and worse then the black market stuff I got and more expensive.
My most recent injection hurts a lot even though I aspirated it feels very inflamed. I can hardly sit which leads me to believe I may be allergic to the carrier oil. Im debating doing a shoulder next because my butt hurts so bad.
What do you guys think? Any advise?
thanks guys.
