Need help bros, with losing body fat, depression problems interfering with everything

[transformK2]

Need help bros, with losing body fat, depression problems interfering with everything

i keep on doing same mistake over and over 50 tiems over and continue 51 -52 times. i keep on doing extreme dieting because this body fat i have is affecting my mental state of mind, im always in terrible fear, im low self esteem if any, depressed, in public my stress levels skyrocket i try to bring them down by breathing in and out or id collapse in a panic attack. im very weak because of this, and this is all because of my body fat making me look ugly as shit fat tub of ogre lard. its demoralizing.

starvation stunts over and over have really destroyed too much muscle mass i posessed . i try to eat low carb high calorie diet (fat/protein) because at least on low carb i dont look as ugly or fat i look "improved" and stuff, so that helps alot more so i always stay low carb almost every day. but i need some help advice on how to get REAL results and how to get passed all that nonsense fear, depression, crippling stuff thats paralyzing me.

i want to shed body fat/gain muscle mass while maintaing a stable state of mind daily and BEING IN CONTROL not slave as i currently am.

stats are 6'2 195lbs (dunno bf %, but ig ot a belly , muscle mass has been damaged significantly its very visible, thin forearm, biceps, thin especially if i train )

 

[Ulcasterdropout]

stats are 6'2 195lbs

I'm 6'2" 215. Your 20 lbs. less then me.
Your story sounds similar to mine.
But I never tried that "starvation" shit..
Find the right diet, and stay on it.
I've been eating right for a while now, with cardio and weights.
I was 290...With little muscle.
It'll happen, but it won't be over night.
Being fat (or thinking you are) will destroy your self esteem.
I did me for most of my life. You can eat right, and be happy.
But no one is gona hold your hand or make you do it. It's your life.

 

[transformK2]

im under constant fear and stress that if someone makes me 1 negative comment on my muscle mass or diet i will be crippled and forced to obey what they tell me to ie (give it all up, eat everything).

im so weak

 

[Ulcasterdropout]

im under constant fear and stress that if someone makes me 1 negative comment on my muscle mass or diet i will be crippled and forced to obey what they tell me to ie (give it all up, eat everything).
im so weak

Ok, for one thing, at 195, you not that fat. Depending on frame..You're like 5 to 15 pounds overwieght..maybe.
If someone says something, fuck em'! Forget it, they won't be able to say shit when you're a 210 lbs, 9% BF, Super Pimp...
"forced to obey what they tell me to"...You can't be serious.

 

[transformK2]

bro, u never lived under extreme fear and stress 24/7. if someone says 1 thing, it expands like 1000 folds in ur mind until ur a slave to that person. its insane i know but im a slave now.

would prozac help me with my non sense fears/worries/depression/paranoia LOL

 

[transformK2]

man i may not be that FAT but i have HIGH BODY FAT. if i ate high carb/regular diet id balloon to 215-230lbs within a month EASY. so trust me i have high body fat regardless what my weight is.

i try to keep my head stable/mind/thoughts by relaxing/breathing in and out, and other things. it helps maybe 50% sometimes or sometimes only 20%. i even get fears about taking meds fearing that they will give me sides then i will have the fear of family complaining at me for taking meds in the first place then ill be in a crippled position of submission. fear of this fear of that, fear of everything and anything

im a slave

 

[Ulcasterdropout]

it expands like 1000 folds in ur mind until ur a slave to that person. its insane i know but im a slave now.

Who are you a slave to, right now?

would prozac help me with my non sense fears/worries/depression/paranoia LOL

I don't think I ever tried prozac. Tried Xanax and Busbar.Good stuff. I don't suffer from anxiety..I just like getting fucked up on some cheap Mexican RX. Helps with sleep too.

 

[transformK2]

right now not much of a slave but when stress rises too high i can be a slave of anyone really. if i try to refuse to obey my stress will cripple me and rise even stronger until i give in or collapse crying.

 

[Ulcasterdropout]

man i may not be that FAT but i have HIGH BODY FAT. if i ate high carb/regular diet id balloon to 215-230lbs within a month EASY. so trust me i have high body fat regardless what my weight is.

Ok, your a skinny, fat guy, it's a hard start, but doable...
Got to get a diet that works, and workout routine, you stick with. Anything is better then nothing.

i try to keep my head stable/mind/thoughts by relaxing/breathing in and out, and other things. it helps maybe 50% sometimes or sometimes only 20%. i even get fears about taking meds fearing that they will give me sides then i will have the fear of family complaining at me for taking meds in the first place then ill be in a crippled position of submission. fear of this fear of that, fear of everything and anything

im a slave

Yeah, sounds like you got a head full of bad wiring for sure... If your over 18, then your family aint got to know shit. I've never had bad sides on head drugs, besides some run-of-the-mill light headedness and sttuff...

 

[transformK2]

i tried valium, just made me tired and sleepy..