Jeff,
I understand the desire to stay lean, or more realistically, to minimize fat gain while bulking. Your reasoning is based on irrational fears. You're intelligent enough to know this, but you've got a disorder that won't let you see this from a logical point of view.
Again, the option for you to talk with a specialist in the area of eating disorders is always there, and it is decision for you and only you to make.
I think you probably took John Berardi's article a little out of context. Anyway, the fact that you've improved your lifts leads me to believe that you're not in some chronic overtrained state. You've had enthusiasm for training, and I just don't think you have some serious issue here. I think you deserve a couple weeks out of the gym and it may not be a bad thing to take a month off, but I do not seriously think you've battered yourself down beyond repair.
All I can help you with when it comes to rationalizing eating carbs and taking 'off-days' is that it works and works well, and has worked since the dawn of time. You've done it before and you didn't get "fat", countless people do it and are not fat.....if that isn't enough, then you probably at least should bounce these concerns off of somebody trained to deal with them.
You went from 250-160 from 4 years of starvation. You ate 2000 cals a day and probably burned 2500/day from all the exercise and the triathlon training. ANYBODY who weighs a buck 60 at 6-2 is going to have low blood pressure. As for the test levels, 250mg a week is considered nothing by the "175lb Monsters" on most discussion boards, lol, but in reality it is MUCH more than a maintainence dose and there is no way your test levels are "below the floor" on 250mg of Cyp a week, considering the shit is real, lol.
With training, you obviously know what works and what doesn't.......you know how to program, so stop neurotically trying to stuff something into every day of the week and just let common sense guide you.....again, if this is beyond common sense, just talk to someone, it'll help.
Your body would respond to training with more cals on a consistent basis. The diets you've outlined, while a bit micromanaged for my tastes, have the cals you need, they have the macros you need, if you were truly eating ~4000 cals a day of the macros you listed, and you DIDN'T burn off 2500 of them with 'secret cardio sessions' then you should not still weigh 160.....be honest with yourself there. I don't think you're unresponsive to training, I think you're probably still creating a mild caloric deficit somehow, someway, or at best ending up at maintainence for 160lbs.
I still think you can do this if you can listen to your own voice of reason, just ask yourself if you truly believe this, if you've got 1 slight doubt, then make the call and let a professional help you beat this once and for all.
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