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Hello guys,
just wanted to express my joy when I read this forum. I am an actor new to L.A. from AUSTIN TX. I have been living with HIV+ for close to 3 years now. Was diagnosed an hour before I boraded teh plane from TX for L.A. I was so terrified I only told my mom right b4 I hoped on the plane eventhough she drove me to teh airport. I had it together, but she cried liek a baby and this made mescared reall quick.
HAven always been the responsible one I felt very disaapointed in myself for letting my family and younger siblings down. But now I am on my meds 01 a day Atripla and its working just fine.
The hardest part is still not telling those in my life. Besides my mom and dad and one of my very good buddies here in L.A. no one else knows about it. I cant eat certain things before my meds. If I forget and eat, it throws me off and I feel like a bad hang over for a good 2-3hours, and I still have to make it in to work. And its hard trying to explain why I am acting weird at work without telling them my HIV meds are messing with me.
The 2nd hardest thing is being able to date. I havent been able to find a girl either poz or a girl who will understand. I have tried the dating sites, but like 7 said they are mostly for people 35 and older and I am only in my mid 20`s. I found this one girl, but she couldnt handle it. I didnt even get to tell her. everytime it came up, she always blamed people who got STD`s and spoke so bad and low of them that I couldnt bring myself to telling her. And everytime she wanted more I couldnt give her what she wanted, hence she always thought I was a wimp--and that doesnt feel to good.
In regards to sex, its been a really long time. I am tired of taking care of myself (pardon the diretcness). Its just very hard finding people who can understand. But I a m blessed for being able to have a job and a mom who understands. My dad still is wierd about it, he has never mentioned it and wants it kept a secret as much as possible. I am still hoping to find a great lady friend who will understand and be willing to build a relationship with me.
Other than that I am coping just fine. Eventhough my buddies dont know, I still try to educate them on safe sex and COMPLETELY encourage safe protected sex.
To 7, keep your head up brother. I understand where you are coming from. I applaud you for your strength. And again thanks to all of you guys for understanding and teh support. It makes a huge difference to feel the support.
I keep gaining weight in the abdomen area. I eat well and have been working out off and on for about a year and a half. My doc. just put me on androgel and I still cant tell if its making a difference. Any thoughts on any good steroids to help me bulk up some. I am 5`11 about 170 lbs. I want to add 10-15 lbs of muscle and loose the body fat. I need the extra boost to boost my confidence so I can command teh camera and start attempting more shirtless roles.
Smooth.
just wanted to express my joy when I read this forum. I am an actor new to L.A. from AUSTIN TX. I have been living with HIV+ for close to 3 years now. Was diagnosed an hour before I boraded teh plane from TX for L.A. I was so terrified I only told my mom right b4 I hoped on the plane eventhough she drove me to teh airport. I had it together, but she cried liek a baby and this made mescared reall quick.
HAven always been the responsible one I felt very disaapointed in myself for letting my family and younger siblings down. But now I am on my meds 01 a day Atripla and its working just fine.
The hardest part is still not telling those in my life. Besides my mom and dad and one of my very good buddies here in L.A. no one else knows about it. I cant eat certain things before my meds. If I forget and eat, it throws me off and I feel like a bad hang over for a good 2-3hours, and I still have to make it in to work. And its hard trying to explain why I am acting weird at work without telling them my HIV meds are messing with me.
The 2nd hardest thing is being able to date. I havent been able to find a girl either poz or a girl who will understand. I have tried the dating sites, but like 7 said they are mostly for people 35 and older and I am only in my mid 20`s. I found this one girl, but she couldnt handle it. I didnt even get to tell her. everytime it came up, she always blamed people who got STD`s and spoke so bad and low of them that I couldnt bring myself to telling her. And everytime she wanted more I couldnt give her what she wanted, hence she always thought I was a wimp--and that doesnt feel to good.
In regards to sex, its been a really long time. I am tired of taking care of myself (pardon the diretcness). Its just very hard finding people who can understand. But I a m blessed for being able to have a job and a mom who understands. My dad still is wierd about it, he has never mentioned it and wants it kept a secret as much as possible. I am still hoping to find a great lady friend who will understand and be willing to build a relationship with me.
Other than that I am coping just fine. Eventhough my buddies dont know, I still try to educate them on safe sex and COMPLETELY encourage safe protected sex.
To 7, keep your head up brother. I understand where you are coming from. I applaud you for your strength. And again thanks to all of you guys for understanding and teh support. It makes a huge difference to feel the support.
I keep gaining weight in the abdomen area. I eat well and have been working out off and on for about a year and a half. My doc. just put me on androgel and I still cant tell if its making a difference. Any thoughts on any good steroids to help me bulk up some. I am 5`11 about 170 lbs. I want to add 10-15 lbs of muscle and loose the body fat. I need the extra boost to boost my confidence so I can command teh camera and start attempting more shirtless roles.
Smooth.
