i am new to this site, i am female, 5'5, 150, bf 14% dieting down to compete in my first show 9 wks out, training-cardio is now 2x/day, weights5x wk. i am hoping there is someone that competes that is in the same position as me-i am bulimic, working to recover, struggling, and being triggered by the dieting down process. i feel very alone in this bc i am in recovery from other addictions but w/this one i don't know another bb in recovery also competing. some people are telling me i'm crazy to try, others say it's possible but this is making my life miserable. is there anyone that can relate? trapqueen