What do you think?

[CNovaJason]

Hey ladies, even gents that read this thread. Things are on the rocks between me and my girlfriend of a year now. I have moved back to Louisiana from Las Vegas and living with her for two weeks. I did f-up I have to admit and work through it, but I wrote her this poem with my emotions poured into it. What do you ladies, or guys think of it if you would get something like this after a little sputter in the relationship? By the way, what I did was cause by my young, insecure self, with her being a mature woman and experiencing life already. Anyway, I didn't mess with any other girls or anything, it just had to do with trying to read her emails......I know it sounds messy but I didn't read any.....anyway, what do you think?

You are my princess, you are my queen. You're nothing less or in between. I wish I had just one more day, to tell you what I have to say. I know my love took time to shine, but know that inside your heart was with mine. Each day I let you slip away, I'd ask the Lord, through words I'd pray. To let you feel the love I know, and see through my eyes the love I wanted to show. I can't take away the pain I gave, and I know my troubles you forgave but hear me out in this poem I write, I'm sitting here missing you tonight. I don't want to miss your smile, your heart, your soul as we walk down the isle, together as one, forever at peace knowing our love will never cease. As each day goes by and the seconds get long, I realize more and more that what I did was so wrong. The pain I feel I cannot take, each morning with sadness I do wake. I want to see you by my side, and one day see you as my bride, to love and cherish as long as we live, in God's eyes our love we'll give. And when our time comes to leave this Earth, I hope we leave the mark of our love with the birth; of a newborn child who can always say, my mom and dad loved eachother till their dying day. I need you baby, my heart my soul, without you in my life, I would pay a heavy toll. My tears I cry are for you my dear, wishing you were with me here, to hold me close and whisper this, "I'll love you forever" and then place a kiss, upon my lips to remind me how, you love me so without a doubt. So read this poem and with each line, I hope you will see me the real Jason again in time. I love you, and will forever, keep that with you always.

 

[momsgettinfit]

Hey ladies, even gents that read this thread. Things are on the rocks between me and my girlfriend of a year now. I have moved back to Louisiana from Las Vegas and living with her for two weeks. I did f-up I have to admit and work through it, but I wrote her this poem with my emotions poured into it. What do you ladies, or guys think of it if you would get something like this after a little sputter in the relationship? By the way, what I did was cause by my young, insecure self, with her being a mature woman and experiencing life already. Anyway, I didn't mess with any other girls or anything, it just had to do with trying to read her emails......I know it sounds messy but I didn't read any.....anyway, what do you think?

You are my princess, you are my queen. You're nothing less or in between. I wish I had just one more day, to tell you what I have to say. I know my love took time to shine, but know that inside your heart was with mine. Each day I let you slip away, I'd ask the Lord, through words I'd pray. To let you feel the love I know, and see through my eyes the love I wanted to show. I can't take away the pain I gave, and I know my troubles you forgave but hear me out in this poem I write, I'm sitting here missing you tonight. I don't want to miss your smile, your heart, your soul as we walk down the isle, together as one, forever at peace knowing our love will never cease. As each day goes by and the seconds get long, I realize more and more that what I did was so wrong. The pain I feel I cannot take, each morning with sadness I do wake. I want to see you by my side, and one day see you as my bride, to love and cherish as long as we live, in God's eyes our love we'll give. And when our time comes to leave this Earth, I hope we leave the mark of our love with the birth; of a newborn child who can always say, my mom and dad loved eachother till their dying day. I need you baby, my heart my soul, without you in my life, I would pay a heavy toll. My tears I cry are for you my dear, wishing you were with me here, to hold me close and whisper this, "I'll love you forever" and then place a kiss, upon my lips to remind me how, you love me so without a doubt. So read this poem and with each line, I hope you will see me the real Jason again in time. I love you, and will forever, keep that with you always.

The poem is very sweet. From one woman that has had her husband go behind her back and snoop through her "personal" things it's a big no no. I hope all works out for the best,keep your chin up hun.

 

[CNovaJason]

Thank you for the kind words. I know what I did was a no no but I am 25 and she is 37, and I still have a little maturing to do in that department. My first relationship ended up with her saying it's ok, everything is fine then I was cheated on. So you can understand my thoughts. It's not her I don't trust, it's the guys that still try to contact her. Anyway, again thank you for the response. I hope things work out.......I miss her terribly.

 

[momsgettinfit]

Thank you for the kind words. I know what I did was a no no but I am 25 and she is 37, and I still have a little maturing to do in that department. My first relationship ended up with her saying it's ok, everything is fine then I was cheated on. So you can understand my thoughts. It's not her I don't trust, it's the guys that still try to contact her. Anyway, again thank you for the response. I hope things work out.......I miss her terribly.

No problem. When a man tells a woman (for the most part) that he trusts her but not men for her it's bullshit.B/c it's saying to her that you are sugar coating the fact that you don't trust her. Let me say this if I was cheating on my husband it would be my choice to do so, what I'm saying is not trusting men makes no difference either she is or isn't going to take the bait. I understand your issues with trust seeing how you have been cheated on in the past but also understand she is not the one that hurt you and you can lose her by not trust "in" her. Take what has happend as a lesson learned and grow from it. If you get that second chance make the most of it.

 

[CNovaJason]

Yeah I for sure will take advantage of it. I wish I could let go of these insecurities I have, but she is so delightful and has a FRIENDLY personality. When she gets ready for work she gets really fixed up, and when we go out it's the same. (Not complaining) But my thoughts seem to wander, b/c she does work in Vegas, at a huge hotel and I'm sure she gets hit on all day long, and I've seen her flirt back with guys that make comments to her about her being sexy or something, even while I'm there. That is what sort of gets to me. But she told me that she just has a great personality and it's what has gotten her to where she is today. I understand that but it's just hard to let stuff like that pass me by especially when I'm there, so what must I think when I'm NOT AROUND, ya know? She says she has to wear a ring on her left hand to keep them away. It's just tough because I come from a very small city in Louisiana and moved to the big city of Las Vegas and people care about very little there except the woman or man you have, and how much money you have(or atleast it seems to me). Appearance is the biggest thing out there, and I'm not used to it. I wish I could just let it go, but the next day I wake up and it's like, boom, it hits me like a ton of bricks. I just need to ask God to take this from me and trust in Him to let whatever happens happen, and to trust in her that she will stay faithful if we get back together.

 

[momsgettinfit]

I just need to ask God to take this from me and trust in Him to let whatever happens happen, and to trust in her that she will stay faithful if we get back together.[/QUOTE]

Great idea. Will say a prayer for you to have peace of mind.

 

[CNovaJason]

Thanks so much, and by the way, I added you to my buddy-list on AOL. I really appreciate the help and the prayers.

 

[momsgettinfit]

Thanks so much, and by the way, I added you to my buddy-list on AOL. I really appreciate the help and the prayers.

No problem

 

[aandd]

Wow. Sounds like your r'ship has already been through quite a few tests. I have been there, and gone through the whole spying on them, loving them, wanting to trust them bit. And I survived.

If you'd like to talk, feel free to message me via Yahoo (the button is under my K bar on the left). I have some "words of (debatable) wisdom" to help you come to terms with infidelity and get past it. Well... I can tell you what worked fo rme, anyway.

Best of luck