i just did and i will again, there is no difference so you shut your shit up hypocrite, and come tell me that when youre dying young from your own personal experiment, like the dozens of football players that are regularly dropping off in their late 40s, early 50s, and dont give me that quality of life shit either, wheres the quality when internally you start looking like the thing mid transformation? youre living on the uncertain consequence principal like any cigarette smoker, feel invulnerable lately? gee that sounds like a mental side effect a rec drug user might seek, wanna know what youre really doing? youre stuck in perpetual adolescence because that was the last time your hormones were in this kind of balance, fear and narcissism motivate your obsession and i personally could care less if you live or die or do drugs or stay clean but youre living in a fantasy world that is no different from any "rec" drug user and if you had any objectivity left you would see that trying to define your massive gear dosage as something other than recreation is ludicrous, you take it to feel good and so does he