OMFG....... The Ejaculator might have to join The Sopping Wet Vagina club...?????????

[jh1]

So ...

I went to get my hair cut today at 5pm. Cards game on, went to bar with hairdresser to watch the end of the game (she is a good friend, gf's mother gets her hair cut by her)...

Feeling Guilty... gf is in aruba prego with my baby. She can't drink and can't have to much fun... always sick.

it is almost mid-night... just got home. Having the biggest guilt trip of my life.

I have never dedicated myself to anyone like this....


And I do this?


I feel like a peice of shit.




AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.


She gets plenty of attention... and has a need for it, no need to talk about why here. But I got nailed 4 times tonight by diff girls, all friends of my hair girl.... and I told each one of them my situation... how much I loved my girl... why do I feel so awefull..????????

I literally feel like I did her wrong... big time.

I have not drank in 2 months... and I think I fell off the wagon 2night and I feel like I betrayed her. She didn't ask me to stop, I told her I was with her - it seems like the right thing to do. Ugh... Why did I do that?

 

[alien amp pharm]

Don't worry...you're far from falling into our club.

You have a good thing going. Just stay with it.

I envy the kind of relationship you have. Enjoy it bro.

 

[jh1]

Broham... I know.

I feel like I screwed it up though. I was going to go to another bar, but thought: fuck maing... if someone sees me out and says something to her... I know I have nothing to hide, but I know how I'd feel if it was reveresed.

Ugh... I feel terrible. I should have stayed home.

Damn... I wish she was here.

 

[pitbullstl]

Relax....the guilt you're feeling is for all the times in the past when you WOULD have done something you'd regret. It's natural, it will take a few years before you can have guilt free fun. If you were anything like me, you have plenty to repent in times past, this will happen for the first few years of any GOOD relationship.

 

[Sweet_Bitch]

You're guilt alone is enough to make up for any anger or hurt she may feel. Best thing to do-tell her how much you love her as soon as you get the chance. Tell her what happened to you tonight. Bare your soul like your life depended on it-she'll love you even more for it. But stop beating yourself up-you did the right thing, you did nothing wrong. You have NO reason to feel guilty. It's cool, just tell her how you feel and all will be right.

 

[slickdadd]

You're guilt alone is enough to make up for any anger or hurt she may feel. Best thing to do-tell her how much you love her as soon as you get the chance. Tell her what happened to you tonight. Bare your soul like your life depended on it-she'll love you even more for it. But stop beating yourself up-you did the right thing, you did nothing wrong. You have NO reason to feel guilty. It's cool, just tell her how you feel and all will be right.

You really are a sweet bitch.

 

[Sweet_Bitch]

You really are a sweet bitch.

The words I've longed to hear

 

[jh1]

Relax....the guilt you're feeling is for all the times in the past when you WOULD have done something you'd regret. It's natural, it will take a few years before you can have guilt free fun. If you were anything like me, you have plenty to repent in times past, this will happen for the first few years of any GOOD relationship.

whew.... trying to bleed away all the tension I built up. Frick.

True, True. My life has changed since I met her, and I have volunteered changes since I found out she was prego... shedding a skin I guess. We have both seen and lived some things most folks would think is crazy. Time for changes... and I have. Tonight is the first time I have even drank since I found out about our baby.

I am really feeling down and out.... I sent her a message, but I can't get over how I feel about doing what I did. I just should have stayed home... I feel like I failed.

Ugh. Shitty Feeling.

Fun... without her? Hmmm... guess that will take time.

 

[awittyusername]

Damn it I posted on another thread that you would be a future member of the SWV's. You stole my thunder.

 

[jh1]

Damn it I posted on another thread that you would be a future member of the SWV's. You stole my thunder.

Link please! BIOTCH!


BTW - all I keep thinking is that she already knows I was out and is mad. Unlikely, but I keep thinking - somehow, she knows.