mermaid said:Day 2 Monday 12 June 2006
Meal 1 - 1 ready made protein shake
Meal 2 - 2 slices rye bread, 4oz chicken, ½ avocado, 1 tbsp mayo
Meal 3 - 2 slices rye bread, ½ cup vegetarian beans, 2 poached eggs
Meal 4 - Canneloni (chicken mince, herbs, tomato sauce, 2 pasta sheets)
AM cardio – 30 mins HIIT treadmill 4kph/7kph @ 15% incline
30 mins bike, hill profile, level 6, 85rpm
Calories - 1638 cals
Protein - 139g 35%
Carbs - 149g 33%
Fat - 60g 32%
Fibre - 40g
I'm in love with Cardio Breeze. No jitters, just energy, it's great. Too many carbs today but easing back into it - day 2 of no alcohol.
It will be a good week
for a brand new day and CB!!
Keep in mind ... wellbutrin, is one of milder ADs ... You can do this gurlmermaid said:
Wry humour there.
Anyway, went to the doc (she's just great) and have decided to come off the meds altogether over the next two weeks and go it alone because I am strong and I have support; diet, exercise, positive thinking and the love of some special people will get me there.
No more crutches and no more excuses. Today is a brand new day.
!!! 
My work day jusy doesn't feel right now without starting it off with 2CB and 30 mins sweating - puts my head in the right frame. Trouble is the CB makes me want to keep going so I might have to get up earlier.
Miss24k said:What is with these no alcohol days in all of your logs... do we have a bunch of lushes on our hands
Um, <looks around>, <cough> yeah <cough>.... I like my cocktails, no doubt about it. Merm & I will be bonding overMiss24k said:What is with these no alcohol days in all of your logs... do we have a bunch of lushes on our hands
& 
when we finally meet up 
mermaid said:*puts hand up sheepishly and nods slowly*
Seriously though, I was drinking daily last year, then reduced it to weekly when I started logging but found that it still had a significant impact on my progress even then. I just think my body does not like it at all. Much better of without it for lots of reasons.
But I still love a good martini
But here's the million dollar question....if you had to choose between a martini or a dessert, what would you choose?jenscats5 said:WERD!! Same boat.....
Me = Cosmos...... YUM!!
Roonytunes said:But here's the million dollar question....if you had to choose between a martini or a dessert, what would you choose?
Roonytunes said:But here's the million dollar question....if you had to choose between a martini or a dessert, what would you choose?
mermaid said:
mermaid said:Martini, every time
I generally prefer vodka martini, shaken, straight up, no olives (either Grey Goose, Chopin or Belvedere).
But if I need the sweet taste, either a sour apple or a cosmo.
Ooooh! I like this game!!! I wanna play!Roonytunes said:But here's the million dollar question....if you had to choose between a martini or a dessert, what would you choose?
).sbt2082 said:They do have chocolate martini's don't they
I'd be right next to you in the same position!T-Cake said:*Passes out and falls face forward drunk into a pile of chocolate mousse cake*
Sugar = happiness... er, um... I mean...Roonytunes said:I'd be right next to you in the same position!
I have to say my favorite martinis right now are lychee and pomegranate. That's right, as though the alcohol isn't bad enough, let's throw in a ton of sugar on top of that.
but in the office and have planned meals a little better.
Eh, I had a similar Saturday, except I also threw in alcohol and lotsa white floury bread in the mix.mermaid said:
But at least we both came clean in our logs about it and seem to understand why it happened. Hang in there, girlfriend WOOHOOO!! That is GREAT news!mermaid said:Which brings me on to today. I spoke to Q-Tip!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! My cheeks hurt from laughing so much. Very cool and very happy. (Sorry for keeping you up so late). AND she's going to T's show - YAY!!!!!!! It's made my week
Keep going.... You're doing great.. You have already won half the battle recognizing the eating issues....mermaid said:Struggling in my headspace right now and so I tried to fill the void this weekend with food (split over the two days):
3 egg Mcmuffins
1 order hotcakes w/ syrup
2 lamb kebabs
1 large order fries
1 med bag potato chips
1 KFC chicken fillet burger
1 small apple blueberry pie
1 whole bar Lindt milk chocolate
1 banana split w/ chocolate ice cream and chocolate fudge
2 cappucinos
Oh but I took my multivits and sesapure/glucorell - that makes it all better
Let me tell you that it doesn't make you feel better. I'm still struggling in my headspace and also have the added guilt. My hedgehog is back, let me explain: At the base of my chest bone - inside - I feel there is a hedgehog, a small prickly ball that moves. Without meds, it lives in my chest and that explains what my anxiety feel like. It's..uncomfortable. Insane in the membrane
On the good side, er, "sensitivity" has returned. And when I'm happy, I'm really happy.
Which brings me on to today. I spoke to Q-Tip!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! My cheeks hurt from laughing so much. Very cool and very happy. (Sorry for keeping you up so late). AND she's going to T's show - YAY!!!!!!! It's made my week
Ups and downs. Such is life.
and I'm quite happy to leave them be from now on.
*Bunny* said:
With the water going the other way!!
mermaid said:
Wednesday 21 June, 2006
Meal 1 - 1 cup whites, 1 yolk, 2 slices rye bread
Meal 2 - Protein soy shake w/ banana and strawberry
Dizzyness, nausea
Sleep - 5 hours
Dizzyness, nausea
Meal 3 - 1 banana, 1 tbsp almond butter
Meal 4 - 2 cups spaghetti w/ 1 cup napoli sauce
Sleep - 11 hours
Woke up, dizzyness, nausea.
Apart from that, I feel great.
STOP THAT - YOU NO BE SICK!!
mermaid said:
No totals today, not enough protein, too many carbs
I'm better but not 100% still a bit of dizziness/nausea but improving daily
and being back at the gym for AM cardio has really helped. I'll build back up to it. Very busy at work, constant meetings, usual dealings with my favourite boss. At least I get a break soon
me for that very thing
Glad to see that you are BACK TOO!!!
Nope I'll make sure of that onescorpiogirl said:Hey, J!!! I'm catchin' up on your log and see that we're still in a "neutral" place....(if that makes sense).
Once you get to Treil's show, you are going to have a renewed sense of why you're doing all this diet/training stuff. You're going to be rejuvenated and chomping at the bit to get to the gym. ......just letting you know what you're in for. So if you feel you're dragging right now, you won't be for long!
Bought meals 2 & 3 from my now, favourite, organic cafe; you know, gluten free, fresh veggies, organic chicken - it's really awesome stuff. Adds variety to my diet which I need right now. I am sleeping a lot too – just taking care of myself properly, for once.
Looking forward to seeing you under the weights again!!
Really??? Want to do my a.m.?? I'm procrastinating right now!!mermaid said:Loving AM cardio, good start to the day
The body is missing weights though, feeling a bit softer. Will incorporate that back in over the next few days.
) for Treil, SBT
It does actually make sense. I mean, doing anything for a LONG period of time, eventually brings about boredom. Plus the onset of winter is always depressing too. I think the timing of your US trip is actually perfect. It'll be a nice distraction from your regular life, you get to meet usmermaid said:I have really lost my mojo
As SG said, I think meeting up with the gals in Detroit will help to spur me on again. I'm kinda bored? Does that make sense? Not even looking at everyone's pics is motivating me right now
Winter has set in too, dark evenings, cold mornings, not much sun, maybe ther's a bit of SAD.
and the weather here is super warm in comparison and perfect for touring the country. ya! Is it only 3 more weeks before we get to give you a BIG HUG in person???!!!
Don't you worry sweetie!!!! We'll find you that mojo again... it'll be no problemomermaid said:I have really lost my mojo
As SG said, I think meeting up with the gals in Detroit will help to spur me on again. I'm kinda bored? Does that make sense? Not even looking at everyone's pics is motivating me right now
Winter has set in too, dark evenings, cold mornings, not much sun, maybe ther's a bit of SAD.
Procrastinating again... Waiting for you to get over here and do this cardio for me!!!!mermaid said:I have really lost my mojo
As SG said, I think meeting up with the gals in Detroit will help to spur me on again. I'm kinda bored? Does that make sense? Not even looking at everyone's pics is motivating me right now
Winter has set in too, dark evenings, cold mornings, not much sun, maybe ther's a bit of SAD.
Maybe your experiencing some Seasonal Affective Disorder?? Get some extra sunlight or get a "tanning" lamp for home & maybe a nice bunch of flowers....maybe that will help.... {{{{{{HUGS}}}}}}}
CONGRATS to P!!!!!!
Did someone say vodka lush?
I'm a noodle?mermaid said:Well.
Still in a funk but I'm getting to the point where enough is enough.
Jens, you have some great ideas and I'm going to use them. Roony, you brought tears to my eyes and Treil, you can expect some major slobber from me so be prepared. Que, you're a noodle and I mean that in the nicest possible way.I think SBT has my mojo. She has enough mojo for a thousand people
I need some your vibe IP - just one more rep!
Went out for dinner last night to celebrate P's new job (awesome news). Discovered caprioskas which for a vodka loving lush like me is fatal. Damn.
My boss has pissed me off to the point I almost quit but I'll never let him have that satisfaction. I can't wait to get on that plane.
TGIMMF. One step at a time - I'll be at the gym on Saturday for weights and cardio. Check up on me, please.
nelmsjer said:Alfredo sauce is not acceptable for the diet. You know that.
Can't say that that sounds too appetizing...que_66 said:
Hey Mermaid...how was the gym today?
nelmsjer said:You've got to be kidding me... No thanks.
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