Ok, alot of the Sheets have followed my fucked up love life on here. The girl who I feel for who dumped me, and ask me to never call her or come by her place again, is still on my mind. I know that it will never happen, but even after a month I'm so depressed (of course I have other major issues going on as well). I never took her off of my yahoo messenger,, because I just can't bring myself to do it, and she is online right now... she asked me to not call her, and I assume that means IMing her as well. I never met anyone else worth my time, or that special. I feel so undeserving of having had her for the short time I did. I truely wish that I could move on, but I can't.
I even have a good friend who is a fuck buddy right now, and we talked about this, and I told her (she understood at least) that I am in love with someone else, and my feelings have not dimenished at all, and I couldn't give her my love. My fuck buddy is a nice person who has had a hard life and deserves someone to love her, but it can't be me. The other girl, is the only person I have ever been with that I could see myself with the rest of my life. This sounds fucked up, but when I first meet her, I truely thought I had found my soul mate.
How do I move on?