I had cancer. Please read.

[chicagobuffedbod]

Like I said, I'm really sorry to hear what happened to you, and don't try to trivialise it in any way, shape or form..but at the same time, there is also something called personal accountability..as in, nobody held you on gunpoint when you where taking more of the stuff that made you that ill..

Just my 2 pennies worth..

B!

I don't think that was very nice to say. It's borderline sarcastic over something that became life threatening. I did describe things related to my health but I did so with the intent to express how I put it all together after the fact. I didn't realize that the pain in my ears or the respiratory infection I got from a previous cycle were related somehow to the cycle of steroids I was using when I eventually went into the hospital 4 months later. And this happened 4 months before I had similar problems with ear and jaw pain, fever that eventually lead to my hospital visit and final diagnosis of Non Hodgkin's Large B Cell Lymphoma.

When I first had the respiratory infection I thought it was just an odd fluke. Who would think that something like that would be related to a steroid cycle? If I started a post on here and implied that my ear pain, respiratory infection were symptoms I thought were related to a steroid cycle I had just started you'd all say I was crazy.

My message was to make you aware of the possibility of impurities in steroids (from underground labs)that might be responsible for causing health issues. And your response was of making some sarcastic comment like "someone was holding a gun to my head?" You're way off base on that one.

 

[Arabian]

Im glad you have recovered.. Welcome back

 

[Big_Joe]

I'm not trying to blame anything and I don't think taking steroids is bad. I wasn't saying that steroid use was bad. I was concerned about the quality of the steroids injected. I was inferring that there might have been impurities that lead to my condition. Not the simple act of taking steroids themselves. I simply related my steroid use to my fevers which eventually landed me into the hospital because after I injected I felt miserable. If it had to do with something else or nothing at all that would be fine. It's natural to want answers after surviving the mysterious reasons as to why a disease ravages you physically, financially, emotionally...etc... But I don't consider myself a blamer. I would just like to know why.
I want to do steroids again. I haven't done them in 10 months. I really liked the way I looked and felt. I'm scared to do them again and for how things unfolded (as described in my post here) I'm sure you can all understand why.

English is a poor language it has so many ways to interrupt what is being said. Instead of "blame" using "cause and effect" is probably better. I suspect the fevers were not from "impurities" but rather high levels of testosterone prompted your body to react to the cancer. It's actually a very fascinating topic of study. How your endocrine system effects your bodies ability to heal. That is what we are doing when we build new muscle. Healing our bodies that is.

 

[lookinfit75]

I am also very glad that your cancer is under control and I hope you are able to have many many more years of productivity and high quality of life. Stay positive and always determined to be healthy and don't allow yourself to ever get stressed out again. Stress will always make a bad thing worse. As for the reason of your illness, I don't know what really happened but it's apparent that something happened to you while you were ON and it's only logical to not only try and rationalize the situation but to alert others of what you went through and your hypothesis as to why you were aflicted with such a horrible disease. Good luck to you and God bless.

 

[pimparealwoman]

Hi Chicacobuffbod,

I'm sorry if you took what I wrote in an offensive manner..it was not mend in that way, nor was it mend borderline sarcastic or making your condition a laughing matter..because I don't see it that way, quiet to the contrairy.

I think your condition is a very serious matter...and I think how you handled the matter is a prime example for other people how not to proceed when using steroids. Regardless if your ailness was caused by inpure steroids, or was a steroid related matter full stop..What I was trying to point out was, to my humble opinion..any 'pain' or major discomfort..is a signal from your body that something is wrong and should be a cue to investigate what is the matter..which to me means, first and foremost stop with the 'obvious ones' that can cause the trouble..steroids being one of them. Then keep stripping of possible causes until you have the root of the problem isolated. Once you have the cause and the solution sorted, continue with everything that you where doing previously that wasn't the culprit..I really appreciate you posting you're story because your story probably already has enabled other people to make different choices for themselves, resulting that they won't end up in the hospital with a life treathening condition....

That's what I mend by personal accountability..and 'holding you on gunpoint' is a pretty mainstream expression on this side of the pond and was by no means mend to be taken literally...it means that everybody is entitled to make his own choices and thus carries responsability for them..sorry if that expression was offensive to you..it comes from someone born an raised in a country without a gun culture, I could have said 'no pink elephant was holding you hostage...'..which would have mend pretty much the same..

Sorry for the poor choice of words...I'm happy you are ok!..

Best,

B!