Most definitely, and not just my body image, but my whole self-image. The really weird thing is I always thought overcoming my ED would mean settling for mediocrity - meaning accepting a body I didn't like. But it's not like that at all.
With the ED, I was always trying to control my body by not eating, but it always fought back and won. Then I thought I could beat it into submission with weight training and cardio (but still bad diet). My results were disappointing - my body still won, even though I was working my ass off. Not until I got the diet right did things really fall into place. I started seeing results. Here I was eating more food than ever, never feeling hungry, not even training as hard as I used to (at least that's how it felt w/ some nutrients in my body), and my body was changing into something I liked. Once I decided to join the winning team (my body) and work WITH it rather than against it, it was more than happy to turn the controls over to me.
Thanks for the book recommendation - I'll check out the bookstore to see whether they have it in stock.
How about telling us your planned caloric intake? I know you prob didn't do this on puprose before, cuz it's low and you don't want to get flamed. I don't ask this so you can get flamed just want to be safe ya know.
hehe, I had no idea the reason behind my omission was so transparent! Well I'm planning on around 1200 (104lbs x 12 = 1248). I am almost certain I'll maintain on that but I'm increasing my intake gradually so I'll be able to see where my set-point is.
And, one more thing. I know you say you only do lasix once or twixe a week - sometimes three times. Before you start this program can you make a commitment to stop it completely?
I am trying to cut down at the moment but it's hard. I can't just stop suddenly because of the water-rebound effect that has. A fortnight ago I had the most horrible case of edema as a result of suddenly cutting down on the lasix. In the space of TWO DAYS I shot up by FIFTEEN POUNDS!! My feet swelled so much I couldn't get them into my shoes, my fingers looked like chipolata sausages and as for my face, it mutated into a freakin' blancmange! As you can probably imagine, the sheer shock of holding that much water weight had me back with the lasix in a flash. I'm now really nervous of going through that again. I am seeing my dr. today so I'll ask him whether he knows the least painful method of coming off long-term use of lasix. I'm taking less of it but I'm scared to go cold-turkey completely.
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Once I decided to join the winning team (my body) and work WITH it rather than against it, it was more than happy to turn the controls over to me.
I love this line. I tend to feel very separate from my body so it's hard to care about what I do to it. I am trying to stop thinking of it as apart from the rest of "me" though - training should help me with this, hopefully.
Thanks for the link - I'll check it out later today
OMG Mini Mouse I had no idea that after you get "used" to lasix and then try to stop your body freaks out on you - 15 pounds of water IS major! Holy shit! I don't know if gradually dropping off will prevent that but I still say you need to get off them. So try to do that asap K? I know the temporary edema will be hell..... That will be hard. But the temporary feeling of bloat from water is better than the long term effects of lasix. But drinking lots of water usually takes care of bloating - eventually that will be all you need - and of course low sodium diet.
1200 for right now i think is a good start for you considering your weight at 104 pounds. You'll need to gradually increase it though. But for now I think that's a good start. Keep us posted girl!