mandinki...wtf that is the same shit I went / am going through. Yeah, I have been this close <> to seeing ashrink and the only reason I haven't is that I am laid off so no insurance. I had to go see an MD freind so I could get xanax , and take it as needed
>.. turns out she fucked me up .... its been three weeks, and still get shitty sometimes if she pops into my head or I hear music we partied to, liked, fucked to, or whatever...
.......... Then I immediately think of how much she cost me (fucked my credit and about $35K or more - depending what you add or don't add), think of what she was driving , BMW, vs what I ended up driving thanks to HER, 73 Pontiac (had a 2000 Mercedes E320) , and I can hate her again....until the next time she pops into my mind..
.... Current chic I am seeing has been cool about it, fortunately. Oh well . After all the above I was hoping the ex would've called me by now after she got out, I don't think the injunction against her (you know a restraining order) would've kept her from calling. Kinda glad in the long wrong, so I can more easily move on