Re: Telling/Admitting to someone you have used gear - biggest mistake you will EVER m
I got accused of it long before I started. If you look good then you MUST be on something.
I used to be overweight in my younger years and ran into a guy I used to know years ago and he said WOW What have you been doing? Whats your secret?
I said "Diet and Exercise". And he said THATS IT? That was long before touching anything at all.
It blows my mind that people can be so inquisitive and such busy bodies about what another man is doing with his own body. I had before some guy who would ask me every single time he saw me if I was on steroids. This was well before I even took anything. Back then I used to think they were all insane because I was a somewhat fluffy 190lbs (visible abs) who had just made a bunch of newb gains over the span of around 2 years and had been bulking very hard.
The problem here is that people just always have to know of the "secret". The reality is, I had been busting my ass, eating a ton if I was bulking, or a little when I started cutting. But my mistake was wanting to take it to the next level, and doing it around so many people who (unbeknownst to me) were "watching" so intently.
I lost my gains from my cycle, but I still look fairly "ok" and have reverted back to the physique I had more or less before cycling. But of course, because I was bigger before, I look like a "juice head" to everyone on my Facebook. Apparently everyone talks shit about me. I mean I used so little as well, it blows my mind that it has come to this.
When I told this dude that I had tried a PH, he was so skeptical, you could almost see the cogs in his head thinking how much of a "cheater" I am, when the reality was I only did it after years of training naturally and busting my ass. This is what all of us do... But we know once you reach your genetic limit, gains are minimal at best. I trained for 2 extra years at my genetic limit and literally didn't even gain a clear lb of extra mass. What is the issue here? It was probably my fault, because I spoke to him at length about everything I had found out about gear. Wet compounds that aromatise, dry compounds used during cutting like Tren and so on. I emphasised the fact that nurtirion is still just as important as ever, and showed him pics of me when I was still a natty... obv didn't believe me. :/ He looked at me like I was a mad scientist or something who knew everythign about gear.. In hindsight I can see why it was a stupid decision to even speak to him in the first place about any of this, given the fact that he's a "natty nazi". I told him how quickly I saw results as well, in a matter of 2 weeks, to which he responded "well I'm not about a magic pill". In order to progress and move forward. It may not have turned out the way I had planned, but now I feel like I can't even do anything anymore because I'll just be judged by everyone I know... and I already do get judged.
Not that it matters to be honest, I can't find the motivation to take anything anymore to regain what I lost just to compete and have my entire "friend's list" hate on me for doing something to improve on my physique (people already have a good idea that I've used). I think it'd feel weird announcing I was prepping for another show, since they'd all know I was going to do it with gear. And even if I competed without it, still get judged. Meh.
It's true what they say. A miserable life can be linked directly to the sort of people you are surrounded by. I feel trapped these days. Kind of wish I had stayed natty.