Yes sir, I do have regrets.
I do not have children and I am quite a few cycles in. Last time I tried to have kids I had stopped AAS for 3 years in all; My swimmers were primo... but it just didn't happen. I also fattened up real nice and looked like a blob... I couldnt stand it anymore, which brings me to this time now.
I hope that one day I can have children but I think that the problem is in both of us (wifey too), not just me (from AAS). I really wish that I didn't need the shit in my own mind when I felt like I did, but what do you do now?
I regret ever starting because now, if I am not on, I do not have any desire to work hard and not gain. So all this getting healthy and go-getting has come full circle and made me a lazy excuse maker in the end. Little sad... Little ironic... But Im almost back to a nineteen inch arm and I FEEL FANTASTIC.
Inside I know what I am doing is not healthy. I don't give a fuck what any single one of you have to say; AAS is not totally 100% safe, wheres the proof? Wheres the proof? Stuff that shit! The proof is right between my legs boys! The proof is in my buddy's blood work and his cholesterol medication. There is a price, nothing is life is free and that is the damn truth. I know for a fact that I will be on HRT eventually, it is inevitable.
I really hope that I can turn my balls around in the future (just long enough to have kids) and not turn back into a fat ass while doing so. But I have this sick feeling in my gut that my decisions will come back to haunt me... I can just feel it.
On a lighter note, I'm gonna throw some successful homebrews up so you's guys can fuck up your balls too!