I am so very frustrated.
I’m trying to eat healthy and make sensible choices, I still track everything that goes in my mouth but the lack of a controlled, deliberate exercise regimen clearly shows. I weigh the same but my clothes are tighter and I look “squishy.” The fat isn’t going anywhere and I think I’m loosing muscle instead.
Working 2 jobs doesn’t leave a lot of time for anything but sleeping and playing catch up and I can’t give up any more sleep because I don’t get enough of that now. Getting 6 hrs or less every nite is starting to show.
I’ve even asked a few friends about how I could tweak my routine so that I’m maximizing my time in-between jobs to get normal stuff taken care of (laundry, cleaning, etc.) I’m tweaked out.
You’d think that the constant activity at job 2 would be sufficient to burn the calories that I’m taking in but it isn’t. (I’m still running 10-12x bodyweight for my calorie range & I take Sesapure, CB & Glucorell religiously.) Yes, I’m active the entire time I’m at job 2 and I even try to break a sweat every day that I work but I’m here to tell you that just being “more active” and not working out deliberately and not lifting just isn’t freakin working for me. I wish I knew how to get paid to exercise.
I miss exercising.
I miss muscle soreness.
I miss my quiet time or my “me” time that lifting provided.
I don’t like being squishy.
Obviously this wasn’t the plan I had for myself at age 40.