Cat Lady
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Posts: 106
Registered: Jun 2001
posted 03-05-2002 07:52 PM
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I'm 36 years old, 300+ and I've been alone most of my life. I made a conscious choice 13 years ago, giving up on men and the possibility of sharing my life with someone. But, I had a life changing experience in the past year that convinced me that I want to be happy and I DON'T want to be alone. I still have some work to do on me in order to accomplish that goal, and I don't mean on my body. I truly believe it's attitude and self confidence that have some affect on whether or not anyone gives off that certain "signal". I know, because I'd made sure that I turned it off. And I suffered for it. What I'm struggling with is that I'm a large woman, who would like to find someone, but the only type of man I've ever had the faintest glimmer of physical attraction for has been very muscular, bodybuilder types. I feel guilty and superficial being this way. After all, isn't that a double standard? Should appearance even matter? I just can't help it though. In exploring this issue and my feelings about it, I went to a bodybuilding competition recently. My hormones kicked into overdrive, so I'm very certain I still enjoy men - especially muscular ones Am I limiting myself with this choice? I'd really love some feedback on this one. Has anyone dated a bodybuilder, and what was your experience? Thanks!
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