My Quest to COMPETE - BEAT THE DISEASE!

[JKurz1]

DOnt set me up for failure bro....Im not feeling it right now...weak....damn!

 

[BiggT]

You'll feel it this afternoon.....hit all your meals and get the mindset....nothing is gonna jinx you......just look at last Sun and how far you've come, you already turned that corner you kept getting stuck at for four years, no looking back now.

 

[JKurz1]

My friggn knee man....its swollen and bothering me...hopefully itll go away, no idea what I did....I'm still getting the chills, numbness and it SUCKS....honeslty feels like I'm dying....I swear, I'm cutting back on cardio....I swore I would follow the diet to a tee and I am swearing to reduce cardio....just worried cause 9 lbs in a week, has got to be fat and water....dont feel much stronger...

 

[gettinripped]

My friggn knee man....its swollen and bothering me...hopefully itll go away, no idea what I did....I'm still getting the chills, numbness and it SUCKS....honeslty feels like I'm dying....I swear, I'm cutting back on cardio....I swore I would follow the diet to a tee and I am swearing to reduce cardio....just worried cause 9 lbs in a week, has got to be fat and water....dont feel much stronger...

i think your still wd'ing from the vicadine with the cold chills. i've been keeping up with you daily. keep it up bro, i gained 20lbs in the 1st 4weeks and then plateaued in weight after that. some was water but most was lbm.

 

[JKurz1]

i think your still wd'ing from the vicadine with the cold chills. i've been keeping up with you daily. keep it up bro, i gained 20lbs in the 1st 4weeks and then plateaued in weight after that. some was water but most was lbm.

ever experienced the friggn pain?

 

[bicepts101]

wow am i out of the loop!!....good luck bro. stay away from those pain killers they have no place in bodybuilding...stay strong

 

[Bruce]

How tall are you?

<----- 6'5

6 3 and a half almost 6 4. 6 10 arm span my friend. makes pressing a true bitch

 

[JKurz1]

THE SUNDAY UPDATE......

SORRY i HAVENT BEEN AROUND, BUT i'VE BEEN severel depressed and isolated. Money issues right now as I need to find a nice truck or car to replace my avanlanche within 3 weeks and the Camry coupe I thought I was gonna get is gonna run $399.mnth....I wanted something around $299 max....any ideas? CHerokee? Civic and corolla fit the mold, but they arent really my style. Damn. I need to hurry up....

Training.........my other reason for depression.

I HAVENT DONE AM OR PM OR ANY CARDIO FOR TWO FUCKING DAYS IN A ROW .........FIRST TIME IN 2+ YEARS I SKIPPED A DAY AND I PLAN ON SKIPPING TOMORROW!!!!!!!!!!!!! FUCK! I AM FAT (hardly, but def. fading fast)

SCALE IS TEEETERING 162 FULLY CLOTHED IN THE AM..........good sign becauussseee

since friday all my lifts have improved!

DEADS LAST WEEK WAS 225 at the end............this week was 235. A true bitch but looked it out. I am already nervous for next friday.

Squats today 115 last week for 6 max, then for 5 on my last set. Today was 125 for two sets of 6....i know, it's a woman's weight but I need to be honest with myself...my knees and legs are so abused and so fragile and skinny from cardio that it will be awhile to get them back....sad thing is, I can remeber 4 plates, for 5 with a spot and screeeming! today I was very happy. NO MO CARDIO.....SING IT WITH ME....

diet has been rough my back is killing me but I refuse to take any pain meds whatsoever....absolutely refuse...5 days with no meds, pain is temporary, mass is forever.

1 cup of oats
25g from egg whites
teaspoon of pb (WHAT THE FUCK!!)
25 g of blend....pretrain

TRAIN LEGS!

then pw shake 36 g of whey
6 rice cakes
cup of rice puffs
glutamine

then

7oz yam
6 oz chicken
2oz fish
cup of green beans

CHEAT??? COMING?? I still need another meal of

1 cup oats
6oz chicken/fish

OR SHOULD i GO PRO/FATS AND THEN A CHEEAT LIKE

4 OZ FLANK
4 OZ CHICKEN
PB

 

[BiggT]

JK....you're doing good.....you've turned the corner and this is the toughest point, you can keep going and it will get easier, or you can go back and be defeated......so far it looks like you're gonna beat this. You put in a solid week. You upped all your lifts and are up in bodyweight. Just repeat for this week. One week is already in the bag.

You'll get out of the obsessive cardio mindset when you see your lifts rising and your body growing muscle....you're already well on your way.

I'm proud of you , man.

About the car....that stuff sucks, but it is just life getting in the way, sometimes good, sometimes bad.....If you look into something pre-owned, but only a year or 2 old, you can do well on $300/month or so.....you can probably buy a nice '05 or '06 Durango or Trailblazer. I used to think the Ford Escape was a 'fluff' SUV, but I rode in one and they are pretty solid and in the age of gas guzzlers are a good buy, and you can probably more than likely go brand new for under $300/month. I hear ya on the Corolla and Civic, GREAT cars, but they aren't me either...If u wanna ditch the Avalanche over gas, you could look into cars like a Grand Prix or something.......what are ur plans for Labor Day?

 

[JKurz1]

JK....you're doing good.....you've turned the corner and this is the toughest point, you can keep going and it will get easier, or you can go back and be defeated......so far it looks like you're gonna beat this. You put in a solid week. You upped all your lifts and are up in bodyweight. Just repeat for this week. One week is already in the bag.

You'll get out of the obsessive cardio mindset when you see your lifts rising and your body growing muscle....you're already well on your way.

I'm proud of you , man.

About the car....that stuff sucks, but it is just life getting in the way, sometimes good, sometimes bad.....If you look into something pre-owned, but only a year or 2 old, you can do well on $300/month or so.....you can probably buy a nice '05 or '06 Durango or Trailblazer. I used to think the Ford Escape was a 'fluff' SUV, but I rode in one and they are pretty solid and in the age of gas guzzlers are a good buy, and you can probably more than likely go brand new for under $300/month. I hear ya on the Corolla and Civic, GREAT cars, but they aren't me either...If u wanna ditch the Avalanche over gas, you could look into cars like a Grand Prix or something.......what are ur plans for Labor Day?

Big man - couldnt have done this without you..2 days right now, tomorrow will be the third....abs are fading which bother me cause I have been lower on cals, but I gotta keep eating. THe big setback will be when they are totally faded, the scale is up and my lifts go down for a day or stay the same. They cant possibly go up every day....impossible.

BUT, my plans....no cheats yet, so I get a solid one in tomorrow or maybe two....rest has been a nightmare...I need something to help me rest. ANxiety is at its highest. I got heavy chest tomorrow after a big ass breakfast, bout 10am...then its all about eating...hopefully I will begin to feel beter soon!