Food is not bad hun.
Hippocrates was the first to say let your food be your medicine and your medicine be your food.
Even things like refined sugars have their place.
I would think you are probably not hungry as you have slowed your metabolism.
Your body adapts to how many calories you put into it.
If you think about the tens of thousands of years humans have lived just surviving the harsh environment, having to find all their food, all of this has adapted us to survival.
Your body does not know the difference between reduced calories, I want to look good in a bikini, and reduced calories, I am starving to death.
It thinks, I am starving to death. QUICK slow the metabolism to adapt to the lower calories, and get rid of the most metabolically expensive tissue, which is muscle.
Your body will also do everything it can to hold onto fat when it thinks it is starving.
Muscle is what gives the great shape to the body, and a really high metabolism.
I would track what your have been eating for a few days, see how many calories you have been eating, and then very slowly up them.
There is another book I think you may like, and the last time I checked it was still available on Amazon.
It is a macrobiotic primer, and some of the principles of macrobiotics are fantastic.
The Self-Healing Cookbook by Kristina Turner
Aruyvedic cooking is also about healing foods.
I think this may help you with the whole 'food is bad' thing.
The best thing I got from studying and following macrobiotics for quite some time is that it is all about making food beautiful, and fully enjoying whatever you are eating, and to eat quality foods.
Here are a couple of links on this site I think you may find interesting and helpful
http://www.elitefitness.com/forum/w...training/dieting-metabolic-damage-570773.html
Help to sort out your diet, including BMR calculations and shopping list
http://www.elitefitness.com/forum/s...iet-565562.html
Just to give you an example of what happens when you lose muscle, the CT scan on the left is that of a 20 year old trained woman, the one on the right is a 30 year old untrained woman.
The white bit in the center is the femur, the yellow is muscle, and the red is FAT