I had sex with my ex last night!! ugh!
We broke up close to 5 months ago, had very little contact and I didn't see him at all since the break-up.
But 3 weeks ago, he called me and I didn't answer. He never calls, so I knew something was up but still didn't answer. I didn't want drama.
He called 4 times that day and I was at a funeral, so finally txt him back to ask if something was wrong and I get a reply "J, I am in trouble"
He has a checkered past, so I knew this must have been big.
I called him, he told me he was wanted by police for seriously assaulting a guy and he wanted to come to my place to hide from the police.
Well of course I said "NO" and wished him well but that I could not help him.
There was a few quick txt since to say hi or whatever, but last night while having a few drinks, our txt's escalated to meeting up to talk. I went to meet him and within seconds we were all over each other.
Our relationship ended, not b/c of lack of love or cheating, but because we were just two totally different people. We both are still totally in love. Prob love him more than any other man in my life but I also found out stuff about him that I could not live with (will not get into that), so had to walk and never look back.
So of course seeing him after 5 months with wine in me, was more than I could bare.
We spent the entire night together and now I feel messed up.
I know I can't ever see him again because it will happen again.
This was a big mistake!!!