OKAY I GET IT!!
I know it's wrong and I won't do it!
I still want to, but i won't because I know it's weird for a 17 year old and 27 year old to get together. Guards, you made that clear
Ohhh woe is me! I get depressed when I think of guys my own age, they are so undeveloped, skinny losers who are very imature (not a 'fun' immature but an annoying one) I guess I'll just say a virgin until I'm twenty because I'd rather have my first time be with a guy i'm attracted to physcially and personality wise. And he is not a jerk, or a scumbag (i'm the jerk because I want him and he has a girlfriend, his age FYI
) and the reason I like him soo much is that he is MY KIND OF GUY! He's adventureous, down to earth, funny, plays sports, really cute, ripped, that's everything I like in a guy and there are no guys at my school like that (believe me I have looked because I really want a boyfriend who will go whitewater kayaking with me) I always have crushes on guys who are like 20 but never someone who is 27. I would never even have considered this guy if I knew his age before I met him but this got all screwed up because I thought he was only 20-21 (he doesn't look or act 27) and he thought I was in university. Shit. Well believe it or not I'm not stupid enough to go for it but ohhh my heart aches! (well I guess it wouldn't be my heart, hehehe) Oh well, hopefully I'll be over it by next week....... who knows maybe we can be just friends
Oh wait, that won't happen! fuck I HATE BEING 17! all these horomones and shit
P.s thanks to all u guys for making sure I knew the reality of the issue.
I've probably established myself here as a whiny, slut, now so i'll just shutup and be good