I'm not sure what to make of it to be honest. In a nutshell, my wife asked for separation. I was devastated. I asked her to re-think about it and asked her to give me her word that we will separate for a while but work on ourselves to come back and be together....she said she can't promise me anything. I was very depressed for a few weeks. Almost lost my job, stopped going to work, didn't care about getting out of bed. I found a condo, moved into my own place, bought furniture and did it all in under a week...it was hectic and hard to do by myself...I have no family in Canada....and all my friends were her friends before so everyone just ditched my ass because they blamed me...so here I was, no family, no friends....etc...
After 2 weeks of misery, I start thinking about this with a clear head and decide that even though I love her and want things to work out, we have nothing in common, we don't get along and we're always fighting...we just don't mesh...I called her one month before we were supposed to get together to make a decision and told her it was over. She was devastated...cried for hours, begged me to take her back....I couldnt do it. I said this is best for both of us....I said it breaks my heart but I cant be in a relationship with someone who is not happy with me...we havent had been intimate for a few months and everyone knows what that does to a man. She said she bluffed and didnt really want a divorce...she just wanted me to change. I said this is my life and you can't bluff something like that. I told her I loved her and wished her luck.
We started the divorce and haven't talked since.
I miss her a great deal and love her more than words can say. I'm heartbroken and not ashamed to say I feel like I made a mistake by not taking her back. The mature part of me says that I did what's best for both of us.
On the bright side, my new girlfriend is a beautiful Irish, German, Lebanese woman - 31 yrs old...4 years older than me. She owns a sports bar and she loves me to death. She's already moved in with me. She does my laundry, cooks for me, cleans my condo, does my grocery shopping and I don't even ask her to do it.....and it also helps that we have sex 2-3 times a day...and our sex life is amazing. We have so much in common. I spent Christmas with her family at their house and spent Thanksgiving at their cottage...good times.
I still miss my ex-wife and wonder what she is doing everyday. I cannot help but feel very guilty about how this went down.