I'm freaking out! Just got back from over-seas... No more PRIMORDIAL PERFORMANCE?

[Windkun]

Hey guys, I just got back from many many tours over seas, I haven't been body-building / getting ripped since 09 when i was last here on the forums and would post here for years.

Prim Performance was my go to place for 1T Tren, Sustain Alpha etc Now I don't know where to go or what to do.

Toss me some help boys - I came back from the USMC Scrawny (believe it or not) My former 4.6% body fat at 180 pounds, (5'9ish) is now a 140 and I havent checked my body fat... but I am not rippin lookin' I'm look SCRAWNY.

 

[VanCity.]

of course you look scrawny at 5'9 and 140!!

 

[EZ_E]

Forma Stanzol is the new Sustain Alpha

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~EZ

 

[1Johnboy]

Holy shit did they feed you man? That is a very low weight.

 

[Windkun]

I was shot in the shoulder; Shrapnel in the hip, and finally a blast concussion to top it off from an IED while transporting. 5KIA, 2WIA including myself. I was medically discharged after my third purple heart since joining , and I believe that has a lot to do with the weight.

And to be honest; you can work out if you have time but... Food is not always the best for a muscle diet; and often you do not sleep at all if things are tense (atleast how it was, it became much more quiet).

 

[joeblow12345]

I was shot in the shoulder; Shrapnel in the hip, and finally a blast concussion to top it off from an IED while transporting. 5KIA, 2WIA including myself. I was medically discharged after my third purple heart since joining , and I believe that has a lot to do with the weight.

And to be honest; you can work out if you have time but... Food is not always the best for a muscle diet; and often you do not sleep at all if things are tense (atleast how it was, it became much more quiet).

Honestly bro I think for the next year or two you should focus on getting back to normal. Get back in the gym and start eating to put on mass. This will help you gain most of your weight back slowly and safely. Once you have your base back and have had time to get used to being on a good training program then consider using ph's and juice. At 140 the only thing that you need to do is eat and lift.

 

[Fishak]

I agree^^

Glad your alright bro.

 

[Windkun]

I'm still rather defined and cut thus the bulk process would be ideal; at this point I've been "Functional" for a long time. I was medically Discharged about 6 months ago, and the previous purple heart occured 3 years prior. - The only thing with blast concussions such as the case with mine is it may lead to neuro damage down the line of which they can not predict. I was told I may lose feeling in my Left hand... 1st bt. 7th marines. Oorah.

Joe, I do agree - but something is stopping me from going. I do not feel motivated. All the regulars still go to the gym, I used to personal train at this gym. I do not want to walk in thin and even though they know it had to due with my service in both Iraq (started camp commando) and then Afghan, it's almost like I am ashamed even though I am still in better shape than the majority of the USA; still have a six back, tri's that show normal etc just... a small dude. Glad I am still cut... perhaps PTSD has had some odd mental effect on my thinking process and how I perceive myself and how I think they perceive me... I just know I am a lot different now

I feel that I need to start something that will aid even in smaller ways such as Sustain Alpha; with Anavar for example; Prim Perf used to have 1-T Tren Topical Solution that was OUT OF THIS WORLD! I cycled that with sustain alpha afterwards (and a stack to end the use) went thru two 1-T Tren Bottles and the Defined Muscle Mass, Strength, and Testosterone filled self-confidence was INCREDIBLE in terms of results.

They say never use unless you've hit a peak in your lifting. I used to follow that rule that I learned on these forums years ago - the issue with me now is... I never was NOT in the gym. 4 days a week and 2 more days a week just training (4 days on the clock training with my own time to lift). I never was not gobbling hordes of food, I was cycling every once in awhile and never had any negative after-effects due to how I took care of the cycle... The issue is as explained above; It will motivate me to get back into all natty. I just can't go in all natty.

I'm a US Marine but to be honest; I can imagine myself having a panic attack and crying / overwhelmed once I actually go to the gym lift for a bit and realize the amount of strength I have lost in all my lifts... The PTSD has caused awful anxiety attacks and flashes of the terrible things we all did over-seas and that have happened to us, flashes of friends no longer with me etc. I have no confidence going in all natty again; starting from scratch + more since I scrawned down so much. -sigh-

I hope someone understands exactly what I am going thru and what I am talking about.

Wind-out.

 

[Wardo]

From one Marine to another. Welcome home, glad you're still with us!!

 

[Windkun]

From one Marine to another. Welcome home, glad you're still with us!!

Semper Fi Devil!

Thank you very much and I am glad you came home safe as well. As you know; front line is brutal. As Recon we still kept with the rest of the Marines; it seemed more of a title to seem "elite" more than anything else in 70% of the time I was over in Iraq, although we did have complete streets of buildings to breach and secure which was Recon only; in Afghan we operated as a seperated squad that was always a maximum of 5 clicks from the main infrantry from the 1st bt 7th; unless we had been ordered to work with McCoys Marines of the 3rd.