Don't worry about it and do what you want to do. You don’t have to justify your life to anyone. Christ - don't commit suicide. I assume you are serious and not feeding us a line of bs. I think sexuality is a continuum and we all fall on the line of a big ass bell curve. Experiment and have a good time before you run out of time. If it makes you feel any better I have spent my sex life having sex with dudes and blowing off good looking, sexy women. I DON’T mean twinky, gay men either. I mean real men (masculine bodybuilders, military, etc.) who would kick your ass as look at you if you even hinted they are a pussy or gave them any shit about who or what they have sex with in their personal life. Now I am moving on to the relationship part my life which definitely involves a woman and not a guy. Meaningless, carnal sex is one thing but sex and a relationship (children too) is another ball game. Just don't screw over some woman by maintaining a dual life - unless she is real open-minded about it.