Last semester I met a friend with a bit of a lisp. Being the homophobe I am I felt it was just a genetic thing and he naturally spoke this way. One day at the dorm he told me we should hang out at the bar and pick up. I gladly followed. WEll we went to a bar and I noticed all men were there. I guess the name of the bar "Moby Dick" should have clued me in, but I was naive. I thought since it was only a small group that I just got a bad luck of the draw and the women just hadn't shown up coincidentally. Anyways my buddy started talking to one guy and I thought he knew him. One thing led to another and my friend said lets go but his "buddy" was with him. So were back at apartment and were drinking. They were talking and making eye contact and jokes together. All the sudden his "buddy" (later I found out he never knew him and picked him up) walked over and sat down near me. Then he reached down for my dick. I was paralyzed and didn't know how to react. I wanted to push him away and at the same time I was curious. A voice in my head said Just go with the flow. So I did. My friend didn't say a word. He just looked and had a smile. I wasn't erect initally but he messaged my pants till I was. He then pulled it out hard. He caressed my nipples. He then took off my pants. I was starting to get into it at this point so I stuck my finger in his mouth and said "work it you nasty little bar slut" and "suck on my titties, your my bitch now". He did as ordered. I felt like it was someone else saying this but It felt so good I couldn't deny. Then my friend came over and said "ive been waiting for this for a long time". He dropped his pulsating erect penis out of his zipper and stuck it in my mouth. It was so big and long I started to gag a little. I pulled it out and spit on it and then stuck it back in. Then My friend rolled me over and said" now were going to message that little prostate you twinkie whore". I said "only my friend because I trust him and his dick is all lubed up". I was scared, frightened I didn't know what to feel. I was afraid my innards would be torn apart but I knew millions of gays had plunged on this adventure before me and I wanted to know what it was like. I was pulling many bitches so why not. I was the whore tonight. I was fullfilling my earthly pleasures and no one could do anything about it. It was gratifying and I felt free from my own insecurities. My friend at first had trouble entering. He finally got it in slowly and i gasped as it hurt a little bit. I pulled it out and said "let me suck on your big cock I need more lube" I sucked and spit on it then he put it in again. So make a long story short he finished everything with a load shot in my ass.
Now fastforward to now. I have been feeling suicidal at times because I don't want to come grips with the reality that I might be gay. Ive always liked women but ive had trouble being attracted to them ever since this event. I hardly talk to my buddy since that night and haven't done anything with him since then. I guess I just don't want to accept what happened. I want to like women again but I think i feel so guilty and so much like a little fairy ill never be the same again.
Anyone have a similiar experience. How did you become totally straight again?
Now fastforward to now. I have been feeling suicidal at times because I don't want to come grips with the reality that I might be gay. Ive always liked women but ive had trouble being attracted to them ever since this event. I hardly talk to my buddy since that night and haven't done anything with him since then. I guess I just don't want to accept what happened. I want to like women again but I think i feel so guilty and so much like a little fairy ill never be the same again.
Anyone have a similiar experience. How did you become totally straight again?