How in the hell can this BE????

[JKurz1]

oh, and BTW - last night was the final straw with me....I get out of the shower, sure I look diced, but I was so fed up with the sunken cheaks, rib cage, and tipping the scales barely at 169, with NO APPETITE.........I just got done training back, deads, rows, etc......trained hard (but weak) and all I could get in was 2 scoops of whey a 2 rice cakes (totally a whopping 70 cals for both of them, + the 250 for the shake)..........I knew I'd get my muscle milk shake in prebed, but it would be forced to........so, I called an old buddy and told him I need a small baggie......the green herb......something I havent done for many years and frowned on it....but I got it today, so I'm gonna go train around 5pm....have my shake and rice cakes.....then smoke a little J so I can EAT, for once......bad idea?????

 

[TheMesonator]

Just becareful of having to rely on that. If it just helps you get started eating better (maybe stretch out that stomach for the night or so) then that's not going to kill you. But don't let it become a habit where it'll start affecting other things (like drive and desire to accomplish your goals).

Also, remember that you don't always have to be perfect. You can eat something bad occasionally too.