I agree with you guys but where am I gonna go? The only option I have come up with is to convince her to go along with this half-ass relationship for awhile, tell her to do whatever she wants and I could get a second job, start saving money and get out. I need to be here long enough to get money to move. I am waiting around because I dont have the money to leave and frankly I'm not sure if my credit is good enough to even rent my own place(I had an eviction years ago). I am really in a corner. She is getting more and more pissed the more I talk to her about deciding. She is like that, very stubborn and bratty. I think we all know she will choose the new asshole anyway. Seems like the illogical thing to do and that is right up her alley. Yeah the only good thing now is the sex...aside from that I am always nervous,scarred,cant sleep,cant think,feeling really hurt and abused. She is mad at me for all these little dumb things that I didn't have any control over. For instance; When we are grocery shopping I will tell her to get what she wants and she will instead get what I want to make me happy and then subsequently it makes her feel deprived and angry at me. It is nuts! I didn't ask for that! I told her to get WHAT SHE FUCKING WANTS! I am so angry right now. I wish I could pack my shit and get the fuck away from here. That is what I did last time, this time I really have no where to go.