I had breakfast with the kiddo and then went to scheel's so i could get her BJJ clothes for her class. She played with her friends until I took her to a "sleep over" with my friend and her daughter while I worked. I did get to forcibly remove a few people from the bar, and had a shitty night. I picked her up, dead asleep from my friend's, got her in bed, I showered, and now I'm sitting here hoping ambien is stronger than redbull so I'll at least get a few hours of sleep.
I love my angel and I hope I'm doing the right thing for her.
Aside from her, I hate every aspect of my life and fantasize about dying when she's not around.
Anxiety and chronic pain seem to cripple me when I'm out and about or in social situations, and I just want it over.
Sorry. Bad week/ month/ 5 years.. I think ambien may be working..