I must comment on the counseling suggestions.
I have already been through that process, thank you for your concern. Please do not fixate upon my mental health. I am concerned that all will jump on the bandwagon from here and repeatedly make this suggestion and that is far more discouraging than you can begin to imagine because IT IS NOT THE ISSUE. Depression LED to my atrophy but is not a factor where this conversation is concerned and I fear that this entire discussion is quickly heading in the wrong direction - and will if this becomes the focus. If my mental state was remotely similar to what it was - I would not care about what I ate, or if I ate at all. I would not exercise. I would not get out of bed, walk about, interact with other people, open my door to see the light of day. I would be in the pitch black of my bedroom sinking into my mattress withering away as I was before.
I repeat - I have done grief counseling, therapy and all the like. Let's speak on that no further, please. I do appreciate the concern and certainly understand the basis of these concerns, but again - that is a very private, painful, personal issue - and it HAS been addressed ALREADY.
Thanks