Bailing Early on my PCT. Fell off the bandwagon. Any words of wisdom?

[PBateman]

I ran 500mg TestE/week w/ 0.30mg Adex EOD for 10 weeks.

It's been 11 days since my last pin. Started with some HCGenerate, 500iu HCG EOD (for a total of 10 doses) and was feeling pretty good until 4 days ago.

I've tried to shake the insomnia and fuzzy head but 2 days ago I actually got sick. I NEVER get sick. Today I learned I have 3 major interviews for new jobs coming up next week. And these aren't chump change jobs. They're lifestyle changers, like 160-200k opportunities.

So I jumped ship. I went upstairs and blasted 750mg TestE. I just can't afford to crash now.

With regards the lul before TRUE PCT, my personality hasn't changed. I'm pretty jovial, high libido, hungry and content. I'm just not as sharp and now fucking sick. I figure I'm going to keep cycling another 2 weeks until I can get through these interviews and start recuperating.

MY THOUGHTS:

It's only been 11 days my TestE shouldn't have dropped THAT low so I should go back to feeling "enhanced" normal pretty quick. Right?

I realize this is going to make my final PCT more difficult any recommendations on things to do as I kinda "bridge" to PCT? More HCG? Nolva? Up the Adex?

Any experience and feedback would be greatly appreciated.

You guys have been really helpful. Thanks.

Also, I haven't taken anything but the HCGenerate and HCG injects. I was waiting for the TestE to clear before I started Nolva & Clomid.

 

[Lou Super Man 123]

i ran 500mg teste/week w/ 30mg adex eod

WHAT ?!
You must be joking right?

 

[infraredline]

WHAT ?!
You must be joking right?

Lol that was my thought as well Lou. That right there is enough to make someone sick lol

 

[stevesmi]

my words of wisdom is a cycle and pct doesn't have to be a roller coaster if you do it properly.

all my clients and members on here who follow what I tell them have all been successful at it. life is constantly changing and you are gonna have ups and downs so maybe steroids just aren't for you if you aren't willing to deal with that fact.

 

[PBateman]

I don't know. I think I'm okay. I'm just amazed at what the testosterone has done for me over the past 11 weeks. Being on T, even the 500mg/wk dose has made me feel better than I have in years. I feel strong, I have increased libido, I sleep better, I'm more articulate and I'm more confident. My face is a little fatter than it was but since I added an AI I've experienced absolutely no sides. (Sorry, I did mean 0.30mg Adex not 30mg. Darn units)

It's probably true that my fears are somewhat psychosomatic. When I was younger I was prone to depression in the winter months but over the I've kinda grown out of it. That said I have all those experiences under my belt that I've learned from. I've tried depression meds at times but never could take them for more than 3 months. The sides were just terrible and they changed my personality. Test though has completely changed my perspective. Is Test a drug? Yeah sure it is. With all it's benefits it also comes with side effects and risks but it is NOTHING like other pharmaceuticals.

I apologize if you see this as TMI but maybe some of you can relate. Like anything else I feel like you can use it or abuse it. But with responsible use comes moderation. This means time on = time off and smart planning of your cycles. I went to school for 5 years focusing on biomedical engineering and have been researching this for more than 14 yrs. When it comes to cycling I'm textbook smart but completely lacking actual experience. I question everything and I worry. 10 days seems too short to be feeling withdrawal symptoms but I turn to the board because you guys know better than I do. I can read 100 peer-reviewed published pubmed articles. I'm smart enough to know the science but what I don't know is the clinical reality so I come here to ask for your personal experience.

I might be a little of a hypochondriac and I might know and read too much for my own good. Still, I thank you for your opinions and your stories because I know that what's written on paper doesn't always translate to individual outcome.

Steves, I really think that you're one of the most helpful contributors on this board. You obvious write from the perspective of someone with a ton of experience. My issue is that I listen to the science more than I do my own body. Any small sign of a side effect and immediately alarms go off in my head. I don't have anyone around me with experience so I look to you (and the other board members) to say "Calm the hell down. You're fine. If you had a serious side effect it would look/feel like this..." I'm no longer afraid of Test and I'm sure after this PCT I'll no longer be afraid of PCT. If it's anything it's just bad timing. I expected to be on cycle when I started a new job and PCT between Thanksgiving and New Years. The economy has kinda thrown a wrench in it.

Once I get through this PCT I'm sure I'll cycle again in the spring. The steroid stigma is very underserved. As you can see with this board most people use responsibly and are healthy.

So there's my Thanksgiving rant. Thanks for the knowledge and help guys.