good to hear Rachel, I was thinking about you a couple days ago. Maybe it's just me projecting but you sound unhappy...just make sure the relationship is healthy if you're gonna go ahead and stay committed to him. How often do you feel good vs. bad? Unhealthy relationships can make you depressed and you won't even realize it. Soon, you'll need sedatives to sleep
lol j/k...no but really...you don't want it to change the way you look at love do you? Just because someone loves you does not make up for whatever harm they cause you. If you're like me, you like having someone to love so much and get used to it, that when it ends or even if it's bad you might do everything you can to get that feeling and stability back? Having someone with grief isn't better than not having someone at all, and it can actually cause a ton of damage...I've cared about men who I believe actually cared about me and wanted a relationship, but were not interested in maintaining a healthy relationship. Sometimes you just have to walk away from situations like that. Once they've been gone awhile I start to notice that I only saw the good things about them, they were actually really shitty people, possible personality disorders in there...but if anything at least just self-centered shitty people. lol Sorry if that's not your situation and I'm totally projecting lol.. Good luck Rachel