Test E would be a great 1st go, here is my 1st cycle I'm currently rocking.
Test P 1-4 weeks 100mg EOD
Test E 1-14 weeks 500mg e/w
Masterone 4-12 weeks 400mg e/w
I'll be running sarm's gw and sk thru out my 14 weeks as well.
And Arimedix .25mg ed or eod depending in what's needed. My pct is designed to fit what I need so I'm not posting it, yours will be different. You have to have your head right and everything else in check before you even start. But my advise by just the way your posting your thoughts is that your far from ready. It's not something you just start and decide not to do half way through. Give it a couple more years keep on keeping on, it seems like your doing just fine.