Thandie

I"m sending the 'weird' pics.. LOL
I'm getting a haircut and taking pics next week.
Hair is too long right now. I only look good when I've got the more polished look... LOL.

Forget not that the earth delights to feel your bare feet and the winds long to play with your hair.
Khalil Gibran

If Oliver could talk, that is what he would say this morning.

I could look at you rear delts all day. I imagine you with moving from station to station, with your hair in a knot, -so sexy- and that Bourne Expression on your face, meanwhile you got those 5 dudes hoping... praying that they can give u a 'spot'.
The look on your face is priceless... Elektra Embodied.
I'm wanting to capture the different expressions for each emotion you feel.
I love U so much.
I just poured my coffee, and the aluminum canister makes a pure ringing chime when I poured my cream... it sounds like a light whisper of 'truth'.. Which is what our relationship is... All sounds of 'truth' have that pure tonality and immediately awaken a sense of tranquil urgency. U do this to me... or rather through me. Helps me re-member, I wanna be a better man, and the man I dream to be for Us.
I love U MPR.
U are loved by many... however I alone get to hold U.
I'm grateful.

I love U.

He's got the freaking Blackberry, rectifying the phone issues today.
Speeding to Campus... Calling as soon as I get there.

I just woke up my love, give me 30 minutes...

Ever has it been that love knows not its own depth until the hour of separation.
Khalil Gibran

I Love So very very very Much.

We will be...
We just Will.
I love U.

As soon as your workout is finished, and you have showered... without me, I know in 5 weeks that routine has gotta go, LOL, then I'm calling 9 your time.
U&ME... that's all there is for ME.

I have become my own version of an optimist. If I can't make it through one door, I'll go through another door - or I'll make a door. Something terrific will come no matter how dark the present.
Tagore
Hold up...
I'm calling right now.

My love is in C&C.
LOL... as in U.
Hold up... look at What are U listening too in 7 minutes.

We gain freedom when we have paid the full price.
Tagore

Ariel=Lion of God, however, I"m starting to wonder if that just means glorified Ego.
Eeeek... I need to change my to something more CoExistant...
Nawt...LOL
It just takes the right Spirit on her own Island, effulgent with Yellow Rays, to put the Lion in it's proper place... as in messenger, or servant.
'Pool' time was last night. It has carried me through the Day. Well U have carried me through this Fog.
Love U are my Athena, and I feel sparked with a smile, every time I breathe U in.

LOL... the pic with the lion is the tarot card for strength. It's Athena, or the Spirit part of the Self, conquering the Ego in the Soul... or the inferior Spirit attributed to the Soul, according to the Gnostics. Im waiting for a book by Jung coming out in October about Gnostics and Archetypal Psychology.... Should be Good.
How Do U Feel?
I'm still feeling Grey... though I can already tell, it will only be for today. I was rewarded last night... so I cannot complain. LOL
I LOVE U More and More, the longer we continue... Now, The more I discover, I feel a lil humbled, but more of inspired. I love that... which is U.
Lemme take a nap and call at 945.
The grey ends on Memorial Day... this I know.

I think so too...
I'm cleaning downstairs.. I'll take pics... it's a juxtaposition of rustic, country with subtle tones that give a more spacious feel than I expected. I mean carpet has a weird thing with space... I can't explain it.
Anyway gimme like 20 more minutes... then I'm calling with blackberry.
Cooler day here...
LOL at Oliver. He reminds me of Frodo from the Lord of the Rings...LOL
Just a wise lil hobbit. However, the Frodo at the end of the trilogy, a somberness in his gait.
U know what I mean...

Love, I have tried to call you 8 times. I tried the Blackberry, then the Iphone.
I dunno if it is my landline... but the Blackberry waits, then I get a busy signal. The Iphone immediately gives me a busy signal.
I'm unsure. Motorola handsets, as far as these grey ones are concerned... are proving as reliable as sleepy Equidouche.

I found this in Gnostic Images by Jacqueline Taylor.
I think it stands for Methira... or the divine Feminine.
I agree about the Divine Feminine.
I feel its our color 2day.

One thing I wanna relay, is when You read it... Thunder, the Perfect Mind.
Notice that it is through contradiction... the lack of say... a resting point, that Wisdom reveals herself as Activity of Transition. U emerge Wise, Knowing yourself, through Abiding with G, and the Darkness he brings. One cannot have Beauty, Joy, without emerging... Uncomfortably, through the Lower.... inferior.

Also calling in 15 minutes.

U are Love.

LOL... On Oliver being Steamed.
I think Sophie's reaction was 'Gosh U2 should get a room' and then Sophie just takes off.
Sophie seems so French to me...LOL
Oliver... world war 2 generation American.
ooooh, I know... check out what are U listening too for Oliver's song. LOL

When the journey is dark... Sophia -Wisdom- is at your side. You may not see her, you may not hear her Words, You may not Feel her Presence, however, she has never left you in this lifetime.
A continuation of The Thunder, The Perfect Mind.

But I am the mind of [...] and the rest of [...].
I am the knowledge of my inquiry,
and the finding of those who seek after me,
and the command of those who ask of me,
and the power of the powers in my knowledge
of the angels, who have been sent at my word,
and of gods in their seasons by my counsel,
and of spirits of every man who exists with me,
and of women who dwell within me.
I am the one who is honored, and who is praised,
and who is despised scornfully.
I am peace,
and war has come because of me.
And I am an alien and a citizen.
I am the substance and the one who has no substance.
Those who are without association with me are ignorant of me,
and those who are in my substance are the ones who know me.
Those who are close to me have been ignorant of me,
and those who are far away from me are the ones who have known me.
On the day when I am close to you, you are far away from me,
and on the day when I am far away from you, I am close to you.
[I am ...] within.
[I am ...] of the natures.
I am [...] of the creation of the spirits.
[...] request of the souls.
I am control and the uncontrollable.
I am the union and the dissolution.
I am the abiding and I am the dissolution.
I am the one below,
and they come up to me.
I am the judgment and the acquittal.
I, I am sinless,
and the root of sin derives from me.
I am lust in (outward) appearance,
and interior self-control exists within me.
I am the hearing which is attainable to everyone
and the speech which cannot be grasped.
I am a mute who does not speak,
and great is my multitude of words.
Hear me in gentleness, and learn of me in roughness.
I am she who cries out,
and I am cast forth upon the face of the earth.
I prepare the bread and my mind within.
I am the knowledge of my name.
I am the one who cries out,
and I listen.

Okay, Love the theme of the next say 10 or so, will be about unification. However, I just don't wanna put up random ones... i want them to follow some kind of order. So bare with me.
Also.... I'm calling U after Equinox time.

I gave my Father his Blackberry Back, and it was all steamed up... LOL
It would be in the best interest of RIM to Market a Blackberry Unison Phone....LOL
Just for us.

The Gospel of Thomas
"When you make the two into one, and when you make the inner like the outer and the outer like the inner, and the upper like the lower, and when you make male and female into a single one, so that the male will not be male nor the female be female, when you make eyes in place of an eye, a hand in place of a hand, a foot in place of a foot, an image in place of an image, then you will enter [the kingdom]."

LOL... That was Intense....
I ummm... EQUILove...LOL
I love U

LOL... I'm like a 5 year old when it comes to movies.
Yeah, if we don't talk... I go through withdrawal.
There is something in the air... I just can't define it.
Has me making a funny face.
This is weird.

U have to so get realms of the Unreal tonight...
OMG... Its on Video on Demand.
Pleez.... U would love it.
Have I led U astray yet?

No membership required... as long as U have ordered from Amazon Before and have an account.
Amazon.com: Help>Digital Products Help>Amazon Video On Demand>How to Order Amazon Video On Demand
Punch Drunk Love
City of the Lost Children
Solaris
Adaptation
Realms of the Unreal... Watch this tonight.

PremonitionMan > Dr. StrangeLove... IMO.
BTW I'm the luckiest Man I know hands down.
Check PMs in 10.
Had no MPR fantasies today....hmmmmm......
Miss them.

My approach, ummmm.... wasn't so great. I'm glad its not linear as in the most skilled with charm is always successful, but it's a dialectic of 2 people with very similar patterns of awareness, and both having the same sort of feelings and motivations in that 'time' and 'space'. I have never been accused of Pussyfooting. I have been accused of being too direct, indirectly... through rejection...LOL.
Your steering and receptivity was acute, and surgical and in sync.
LOL...
I love U.
Just Got home. Calling in 12 minutes.

I have a request... LOL
It's not practical... but I'm I'm impatient today.
U must see this movie... LOL.
However, U are my Queen... and I need to show more restraint.
check your PMs Love.

Okay reading Nag Hammadi... I read it 4 years ago, and was so fucking moved.
Anyway this is the Hypostasis of the Archons. Archon means Bad Controlling Angel.
Anway it is about how The Female Spirit commands Adam to Arise. I understand, that it is inherent in the Female nature to be more Spiritual... Ideal Humanity is Androgynous... Spiritual and Material... This is Gnosis.

And the spirit-endowed Woman came to [Adam] and spoke with him, saying, "Arise, Adam." And when he saw her, he said, "It is you who have given me life; you shall be called "Mother of all the living" - for it is she who is my mother. It is she who is the Physician, and the Woman, and She Who Has Given Birth." . . . Then the Female Spiritual Principle came in the Snake, the Instructor, and it taught them, saying, ". . . you shall not die; for it was out of jealousy that he said this to you. Rather, your eyes shall be open, and you shall become like gods, recognizing evil and good." . . . And the arrogant Ruler cursed the Woman . . . [and] . . . the Snake." pages 29 - 31

He's made the transition from affectionate one who appreciates your beauty, to the idea that he is a provider... hmmmm.... he underestmates you to a very, very, very high degree. He is treating you like some 21 year old pretty face. Wow, I'm so appalled by his lack of skill. I mean he's a psychologist, I would've thought he would have started with the 'connection' and then made a passing comment about your physical perfection. Puzzling that a dumbass can get to such a prestigious level of clientele.
It is very puzzling indeed.
I'm now sitting in hospital lobby, waiting to go home with father so I can call my beloved.
Feeing Okay though, not the anxiety... of Must Get to Phone... with a Jason Bourne Expression on my Face.

I love U.
Just Do.
It is so Muggy out here today...
Yuck.
Did U get any texts from Dr. StrangeLove?

This is my favorite Gnostic Piece. It is called Thunder the Perfect Mind.
It is about how Paradoxical Truth is. How Wisdom and Ignorance are not really enemies, but it is through ignorance, that Wisdom shows her True Beauty.


I was sent forth from the power,

and I have come to those who reflect upon me,
and I have been found among those who seek after me.
Look upon me, you who reflect upon me,
and you hearers, hear me.
You who are waiting for me, take me to yourselves.
And do not banish me from your sight.
And do not make your voice hate me, nor your hearing.
Do not be ignorant of me anywhere or any time. Be on your guard!
Do not be ignorant of me.
For I am the first and the last.
I am the honored one and the scorned one.
I am the whore and the holy one.
I am the wife and the virgin.
I am <the mother> and the daughter.
I am the members of my mother.
I am the barren one
and many are her sons.
I am she whose wedding is great,
and I have not taken a husband.
I am the midwife and she who does not bear.
I am the solace of my labor pains.
I am the bride and the bridegroom,
and it is my husband who begot me.
I am the mother of my father
and the sister of my husband
and he is my offspring.
I am the slave of him who prepared me.
I am the ruler of my offspring.
But he is the one who begot me before the time on a birthday.
And he is my offspring in (due) time,
and my power is from him.
I am the staff of his power in his youth,
and he is the rod of my old age.
And whatever he wills happens to me.
I am the silence that is incomprehensible
and the idea whose remembrance is frequent.
I am the voice whose sound is manifold
and the word whose appearance is multiple.
I am the utterance of my name.
Why, you who hate me, do you love me,
and hate those who love me?
You who deny me, confess me,
and you who confess me, deny me.
You who tell the truth about me, lie about me,
and you who have lied about me, tell the truth about me.
You who know me, be ignorant of me,
and those who have not known me, let them know me.
For I am knowledge and ignorance.
I am shame and boldness.
I am shameless; I am ashamed.
I am strength and I am fear.
I am war and peace.
Give heed to me.
I am the one who is disgraced and the great one.
Give heed to my poverty and my wealth.
Do not be arrogant to me when I am cast out upon the earth,
and you will find me in those that are to come.
And do not look upon me on the dung-heap
nor go and leave me cast out,
and you will find me in the kingdoms.
And do not look upon me when I am cast out among those who
are disgraced and in the least places,
nor laugh at me.
And do not cast me out among those who are slain in violence.
But I, I am compassionate and I am cruel.
Be on your guard!
Do not hate my obedience
and do not love my self-control.
In my weakness, do not forsake me,
and do not be afraid of my power.
For why do you despise my fear
and curse my pride?
But I am she who exists in all fears
and strength in trembling.
I am she who is weak,
and I am well in a pleasant place.
I am senseless and I am wise.

Jaguars represent on the psychological Archetypal level, a messenger of the divine, also Power, in the sense of the ability to INFLUENCE, also... a certain Exotic, Abundant Quality.
So yes... U.

First You have some Hammock time with me.
Which does not count as self sacrifice... for me anyway... LOL.
I wanted a Jaguar by the way for my companion on the Island...
So U.

Finished moving stuff Office Wise.
I'm calling U at 530 your time. Should be home by 5.
I love the fact that Chris and Smurf have been here.
We need to have Dinner with them some time.
-Seriously-

U&ME.... Which one is 4 US?

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Everything comes to us that belongs to us if we create the capacity to receive it.

Tagore
I Gotta Build by Unpacking... Love.

I love U.

I did, I love it... I had to go back to Youtube, cause it did not embed.
I bet you feel a light, weariness.... An extra large Hammock, with your head resting on my chest, would so hit the spot. To look down and have nothing but that dirty blonde hair grazing my chin... Delightful. That's Peace Love. To me anyway. LOL

Check what are U listening too...
I love U.
Feeling so Groggy... Going to call in an hour Love.
Are U shopping?

Love is an endless mystery, for it has nothing else to explain it
Tagore

I have to wait 5 more weeks before I hold U...
I need to stop Fantasizing too...
-not really- LOL
Hard to Focus Today When All I see is U.

Gimme till 745... I'm taking pics of downstairs... gives the house more of a nice modern/yet rustic/country 'feel'...

Its only gonna get crowded up in here.
LOL
I love U.

Yeeeaaaahhhh
Warm Pool-Invigorating-Tranquil-...... US.

Peek a Boo ^_^ Just wanted to say Hi... so.... HI!

If U were stranded on an Island and could have any animal as a companion, what kind would it be and Why?

Your favorite color? What kind of personal qualities would this color permeate U with?

You are on a body of water. It can be tranquil, turbulent, any type of body of water. Bathtub, Lake, Ocean, pool. Whatever, describe the atmosphere, the water, your experience. Imagine Your most desired experience with this body of water.

You are led by the Melanie, CiCi, Valerie. They tell U they will be back. Its been 30 minutes.
The room is white, with only a couch to lay on. U have no clue when they are going to return, however they said they would.
How does this experience unfold? Tell me How U are feeling at this moment.

This is a fun Icebreaker that Anjali taught me...
Only when her Hawtness has time.

“The future enters into us, in order to transform itself in us, long before it happens.
Rainer Maria Rilke
Do U likey MPR?
LOL

“Most people are like a falling leaf that drifts and turns in the air, flutters, and falls to the ground. But a few others are like stars which travel one defined path: no wind reaches them, they have within themselves their guide and path.”

Herman Hesse
My Queen is one of the few...

The only way to make sense out of change is to plunge into it, move with it, and join the dance.


Alan Watts

She was a Sage, she pacified all who came into her life. Everyone seemed crazy, except her. I think she was incredibly lonely though on the inside...
LOL
I think she had a certain 'common sense' open yet tranquil demeanor that all connected to.
I'd even call it GRACE.

LOL... I thought he sent U the Mary Tyler Moore... text.
I was like Holy Shit, this guy is a fucking Wily Doucebag...
LOL, I then the voice in my head said, U are the Douche Bag, DoucheBag, That's her...
LOL
So U.
I used to watch that show all the time.
U are so not Rhoda. LOL
I loved it when in the credits she tossed her hat up in the air, and all those people were in the background.
Cheesy, but says so many things on a spiritual, cultural, and historical level.
Now I wanna make a music video about Mary's sorrow that she kept to herself,
Thandie > Mary Tyler Moore...
Still I 'feel' the resonance tween U and MTM.
I now realize peeps totally underestimated her.... and took her for granted, big time... on the show.
LOL... at me.

Any Texts from Dr. StrangeLove?

MPR... I seriously would like to have that,
I'm not joking.

“Things do not change; we change.”
Thoreau....
U holster Me...

LOL.... U holstering.... it kills me... and then you get a call right, and like and, the funny thing is I see U drawing in mid convo, with a certain grace, like even though your hands are active in convo, you gotta taichi type circular movement with your hands, that peeps even forget the imbalance and interruption of the conversation...
You could pull it off Love betta than anyone I know... Without looking like a douche... LOL
Thats how hypnotic your skills are...

I know, but I wanna know if his text was about your clothing at the gym, the weather today, or has he brought 'depth' to reveal his complexity, by assuaging you with the idea he digs on 'assertiveness'.
Anyway bottom line, next move is he will start comnmenting on your 'inner beauty'.
He will only talk about exterior beauty for so long. He will step it up... trust me.

LOL... I'm in hospital lobby. He's going to be overnight here... I"m just waiting for confirmation that I can leave. He's got stuff for me to fax to my brother. I'm his personal assistant 2day it seems.
Anyway, as soon as I get these documents... I"m homeward bound. I'm driving the SLK Roadster today. Not exactly the ascetic's ride of choice...
Oh well.
I'm guessing with trip home, and safe to say it will be an hour he has me waiting, before 7 your time.
My cell in my desk charging... I would wear one of those belts... but no way...
I know, I know.... there were past days U holstered.... Just guessing.
I gotta story bout that.
Charts are being worked on.
I'm gonna check out Email for Sophie...LOL
When I get nervous, the exact opposite happens to me...
What did Dr. Love send U?

Great Hearts send forth the secret forces that Incessantly draw great events...

Emerson

Inositol of the Will... Made its way from the Sensation level in the morning to the more Emotional... The subtle transition, was not subtle... but profound. Yet U felt a remarkable, light simplicity in the evening no?
This mirrors U.

Green Tea Count?

Music fills the infinite between two souls
Tagore
How does Sophie look?

U don't have to worry about me peeing on the carpet when getting groomed.

You can't cross the Sea, by merely Standing and Staring at the Water.
Tagore

Train cars, I think are done for now...LOL

I'm now watching Rise of The Lycans...LOL
Missing My ThandaBear...

+ = US....

Lemme know how dinner was.

LOL at Dr. Love.

Last one before I go....
Clouds come floating into my life, no longer to carry rain or usher storm, but to add color to my sunset sky.
Rabindranath Tagore
This is how I want U to feel after the -9- Transition.

Asian with Niacin Rush face.... Librarians probably think I was drinking...LOL
Call My Queen when I get home.

All difficult things have their origin in that which is easy, and great things in that which is small.
Lao Tzu

What a difference a phone call can make, no?
U know what I mean...LOL

Ummm.... U are beyond sekC...
My Queen is all mine too...
Not Sharing...LOL
Selfish Like that...

LOL... U are the sexiest Wise/Sagacious/Spiritual 'fool' I have met.
She's my Queen 2.

Iphone in 15...
Inositol Queen...
You are my Inositiol...
I'm such a cheese snack.

I was thinking Ummmm.... maybe we could ummm... U know U could go see Dr Oz... before SekZ time?
I am so just kidding...
With or without b12... we could light up the city.

I can't believe the Nurse just Knew... Ya know.
I'm envious of U now, walking around full of love, b12, and stuff...
I love U.

Love, are U free at 1130 your time?

I just talked to UknowWho...
LOL on her advice.
I'm telling U here in 10 minutes...
I posted this on my profile... I always do this...
Huuuuuuuuuggghhhhh? LOL
Oh... I have the next book for U, I'll Pm it to you... its a favorite of mine, and is just a collection of Chinese Poetry... 'Tao Te Ching'
However, the translation is key... if you get the wrong one, it fucks alot of it up.

He who controls others may be powerful, but he who has mastered himself is mightier still.
Lao Tzu

Discipline-Restraint-Self Mastery...

Being deeply loved by someone gives you strength, while loving someone deeply gives you courage.
Lao Tzu
Sophie in the Dog House...LOL.

Just letting U know I love U.
Jus Sayin...
We will have to keep an eye on Sophie...
Lil Wanderer...LOL

Our Sleep Song is on What are U listening too..
Ol 55 by Sarah Mclachlan....

LOL...
Love U ARE...
“What you are comes to you”
Ralph Waldo Emerson

LOL Our Song is ON what are You listening too...

LOL... I shorted myself on the Elliptical..
I just had all these thoughts/Feelings... of Appreciation 4 U.
I'm weird...
Anyway, won't be on campus till 4 your time.

Off to the gym Love....
Our Time soon.

“For everything you have missed, you have gained something else, and for everything you gain, you lose something else.”
Ralpho Waldo Emerson...
I love U.

Trix are for Kids...
Some Cereal Rabbit
U know what I mean.
LOL
Sleep Well My Love.

If I know What Love Is...
Its Because Of U.
Herman Hesse

To be able to throw one's self away for the sake of a moment, to be able to sacrifice years for a woman's smile - that is happiness”

Herman Hesse

I love U... So Much.
Just letting U know...
Kiss Oliver and Sophie for me.
Tell them though its from Ariel though...
Grey Shoes? LOL
I'm thinking Melanie is gonna stop dropping 'disingenuine bombs' from now on.

“There is no love which does not become help.”
U... All U.
More than any person I have yet to meet.
Oh by Tillich.
Check what are U listening too, then I"m heading out.

Too bad I'm short, also look bad with a shaved head...
I wanna commodify and model tibetan say fashion...
LOL..J/K...
So not funny.
I had the secretary come into the Professor Lounge Twice, so I think that's my hint to not hog the phone...
LOL... Left my Nokia at home 2. I'm en route in 15 minutes...
I'll speed home... Supposed to wash GLK... do that later tonight.
Great SUV... they 'marketed' it through Sex and the City advertising last year during Superbowl.
I have to buy my own car in December... so do not want 2.
However... What U said about 'comfort' and being real... applies.
6 your time, however I ain't waiting for the usual time to talk...
NeedUNow. or at least in 90 minutes anyway.
Melanie is back out of my DawgHouse... 4now.

Your Situation for the past 5 years building up.. from Lonely to Solitude...
“Language... has created the word "loneliness" to express the pain of being alone. And it has created the word "solitude" to express the glory of being alone.”
Paul Tillich

“The future enters into us, in order to transform itself in us, long before it happens.”
RMR

Check what are you listening too...
LOL at Melanie...

I'm listening to George MIchael...
Freedom... I love this song...
Reminds Me of U.

I loved Creep... Hmmm....
Hard to Top...LOL
I bet Paula went up to you today, or is pondering about approaching you in an apologetic way... either that or avoiding U..LOL

“Love consists in this, that two solitudes protect and touch and greet each other”
Rainer Maria Rilke

“The first duty of love is to listen.”
PT
I'm hear... 415 can't come sooner.

Oh... I'm switching my plan over to the backup phone.
From now... Picking up whenever I see that Area Code.
LOL... at sleepless nights.

How is Class?
We just gotta abide... Transitions.