Thandie

I have a request... LOL
It's not practical... but I'm I'm impatient today.
U must see this movie... LOL.
However, U are my Queen... and I need to show more restraint.
check your PMs Love.

Okay reading Nag Hammadi... I read it 4 years ago, and was so fucking moved.
Anyway this is the Hypostasis of the Archons. Archon means Bad Controlling Angel.
Anway it is about how The Female Spirit commands Adam to Arise. I understand, that it is inherent in the Female nature to be more Spiritual... Ideal Humanity is Androgynous... Spiritual and Material... This is Gnosis.

And the spirit-endowed Woman came to [Adam] and spoke with him, saying, "Arise, Adam." And when he saw her, he said, "It is you who have given me life; you shall be called "Mother of all the living" - for it is she who is my mother. It is she who is the Physician, and the Woman, and She Who Has Given Birth." . . . Then the Female Spiritual Principle came in the Snake, the Instructor, and it taught them, saying, ". . . you shall not die; for it was out of jealousy that he said this to you. Rather, your eyes shall be open, and you shall become like gods, recognizing evil and good." . . . And the arrogant Ruler cursed the Woman . . . [and] . . . the Snake." pages 29 - 31

He's made the transition from affectionate one who appreciates your beauty, to the idea that he is a provider... hmmmm.... he underestmates you to a very, very, very high degree. He is treating you like some 21 year old pretty face. Wow, I'm so appalled by his lack of skill. I mean he's a psychologist, I would've thought he would have started with the 'connection' and then made a passing comment about your physical perfection. Puzzling that a dumbass can get to such a prestigious level of clientele.
It is very puzzling indeed.
I'm now sitting in hospital lobby, waiting to go home with father so I can call my beloved.
Feeing Okay though, not the anxiety... of Must Get to Phone... with a Jason Bourne Expression on my Face.

I love U.
Just Do.
It is so Muggy out here today...
Yuck.
Did U get any texts from Dr. StrangeLove?

This is my favorite Gnostic Piece. It is called Thunder the Perfect Mind.
It is about how Paradoxical Truth is. How Wisdom and Ignorance are not really enemies, but it is through ignorance, that Wisdom shows her True Beauty.


I was sent forth from the power,

and I have come to those who reflect upon me,
and I have been found among those who seek after me.
Look upon me, you who reflect upon me,
and you hearers, hear me.
You who are waiting for me, take me to yourselves.
And do not banish me from your sight.
And do not make your voice hate me, nor your hearing.
Do not be ignorant of me anywhere or any time. Be on your guard!
Do not be ignorant of me.
For I am the first and the last.
I am the honored one and the scorned one.
I am the whore and the holy one.
I am the wife and the virgin.
I am <the mother> and the daughter.
I am the members of my mother.
I am the barren one
and many are her sons.
I am she whose wedding is great,
and I have not taken a husband.
I am the midwife and she who does not bear.
I am the solace of my labor pains.
I am the bride and the bridegroom,
and it is my husband who begot me.
I am the mother of my father
and the sister of my husband
and he is my offspring.
I am the slave of him who prepared me.
I am the ruler of my offspring.
But he is the one who begot me before the time on a birthday.
And he is my offspring in (due) time,
and my power is from him.
I am the staff of his power in his youth,
and he is the rod of my old age.
And whatever he wills happens to me.
I am the silence that is incomprehensible
and the idea whose remembrance is frequent.
I am the voice whose sound is manifold
and the word whose appearance is multiple.
I am the utterance of my name.
Why, you who hate me, do you love me,
and hate those who love me?
You who deny me, confess me,
and you who confess me, deny me.
You who tell the truth about me, lie about me,
and you who have lied about me, tell the truth about me.
You who know me, be ignorant of me,
and those who have not known me, let them know me.
For I am knowledge and ignorance.
I am shame and boldness.
I am shameless; I am ashamed.
I am strength and I am fear.
I am war and peace.
Give heed to me.
I am the one who is disgraced and the great one.
Give heed to my poverty and my wealth.
Do not be arrogant to me when I am cast out upon the earth,
and you will find me in those that are to come.
And do not look upon me on the dung-heap
nor go and leave me cast out,
and you will find me in the kingdoms.
And do not look upon me when I am cast out among those who
are disgraced and in the least places,
nor laugh at me.
And do not cast me out among those who are slain in violence.
But I, I am compassionate and I am cruel.
Be on your guard!
Do not hate my obedience
and do not love my self-control.
In my weakness, do not forsake me,
and do not be afraid of my power.
For why do you despise my fear
and curse my pride?
But I am she who exists in all fears
and strength in trembling.
I am she who is weak,
and I am well in a pleasant place.
I am senseless and I am wise.

Jaguars represent on the psychological Archetypal level, a messenger of the divine, also Power, in the sense of the ability to INFLUENCE, also... a certain Exotic, Abundant Quality.
So yes... U.

First You have some Hammock time with me.
Which does not count as self sacrifice... for me anyway... LOL.
I wanted a Jaguar by the way for my companion on the Island...
So U.

Finished moving stuff Office Wise.
I'm calling U at 530 your time. Should be home by 5.
I love the fact that Chris and Smurf have been here.
We need to have Dinner with them some time.
-Seriously-

U&ME.... Which one is 4 US?

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Everything comes to us that belongs to us if we create the capacity to receive it.

Tagore
I Gotta Build by Unpacking... Love.