cindy, i think you're being too critical and hard on yourself.
as long as drinking doesn't get in the way of any work/things you want to get done, it's not a problem.
You're only addicted if you're dependent on it.
figure out why you drink.
I drink because it's a fucking blast. Only for events/special occasions/weekends.
One time freshman year of college, I went 6 months without drinking just to see if i could do it. And I did it easily.
jigga - i'm probably the nicest drunk in the world. Funny thing is, when i'm wasted, no one can really even tell i'm drunk. I've never even been in a fight drunk, but have broken up dozens of them. Of course, I joke around a lot. But I've only gotten angry drunk twice in my life.
And one of those times was when i had a beer in my pocket at 20 and my drunken buddy told the cops. they tackled me and i got a misdemeanor even though it was expunged from my record.
My only problem with drinking, is a few of my friends and I can drink nonstop till we pass out. We'll have over 20 drinks in an 8 hour span sometimes. Lately I try to stick around 6-10 drinks 2-4 times a month. 6-10 drinks then cutting yourself off makes for the perfect buzz.