You guys have been great

[digimon7068]

I miss everything.

me too d00d...well...anything that doesnt have anything to do with memememememe, anyway

 

[cindylou]

the question is do you think you drink too much?? i think that there have been times in my life that i probably did...but, that's not necessarily a question that someone else can answer for you, me thinks.

I think I drink too much... I should have stopped or at least cut back a long time ago.
If you see me IRL you wouldn't even be able to tell that my life isn't perfect. I don't have any DUI's... I rarely leave the house and drink... and its never caused me any problems in my life, really. I'm responsible. I don't lay around the house the next day, I'm productive.. No one in my RL has said that I drink too much, but no one really knows how much I drink besides the people of EF really....my drinking has caused no real problems besides some embarassing posts on the internet and facebook and sometimes I say things I don't mean to say but most people have forgiven me for those mistakes.

I wish there was something I could do to go back and change what I said..

I mixed about the whole thing. I didn't mean to hurt anyone. I didn't meant to hurt myself in the process. It just sucks.

And what's funny is that my drinking was never a problem w/ java until I got mean....I'm just trying to understand what happened it went downhill so fast..in the manner of an hour..I fucked up and said the wrong thing and just like that everything changed....and when I look back, all I'm going to remember is the last 48 hours and none of the wonderful part. I still can't get fake relationship out of my head....I'll never forget that. I'll never forget that he was on the phone with me and posting our conversation on the board...I'll never forget that.

I'm just trying to make sense of what's happened still. Damn.

 

[digimon7068]

I think I drink too much... I should have stopped or at least cut back a long time ago.
If you see me IRL you wouldn't even be able to tell that my life isn't perfect. I don't have any DUI's... I rarely leave the house and drink... and its never caused me any problems in my life, really. I'm responsible. I don't lay around the house the next day, I'm productive.. No one in my RL has said that I drink too much, but no one really knows how much I drink besides the people of EF really....my drinking has caused no real problems besides some embarassing posts on the internet and facebook and sometimes I say things I don't mean to say but most people have forgiven me for those mistakes.

I wish there was something I could do to go back and change what I said..

I mixed about the whole thing. I didn't mean to hurt anyone. I didn't meant to hurt myself in the process. It just sucks.

And what's funny is that my drinking was never a problem w/ java until I got mean....I'm just trying to understand what happened it went downhill so fast..in the manner of an hour..I fucked up and said the wrong thing and just like that everything changed....and when I look back, all I'm going to remember is the last 48 hours and none of the wonderful part. I still can't get fake relationship out of my head....I'll never forget that. I'll never forget that he was on the phone with me and posting our conversation on the board...I'll never forget that.

I'm just trying to make sense of what's happened still. Damn.

i would say the same thing about me and my drinking...it never really had any negative effect perse (never had an accident or dui or got in drunken brawls or or lost friends or missed work or missed anything for that matter)...i just think that there were times in my life that i just drank too much...period...mostly out of boredom, i suppose...i haven't been bored in so long, i don't even remember what it was like...every now and then, i wish i was bored LOL.

 

[Arabian]

Good Luck to you Cindylou. I wish you the best.

 

[cindylou]

i would say the same thing about me and my drinking...it never really had any negative effect perse (never had an accident or dui or got in drunken brawls or or lost friends or missed work or missed anything for that matter)...i just think that there were times in my life that i just drank too much...period...mostly out of boredom, i suppose...i haven't been bored in so long, i don't even remember what it was like...every now and then, i wish i was bored LOL.

yeah, it was mostly a social thing until Johnny left and then I basically started sitting at home and drinking on the weekends after abby went to bed.. while reading or browsing forums or listening to music..then all of the sudden its 4 oclock in the morning and I've drank 3/4 of a fifth of rum...

 

[digimon7068]

yeah, it was mostly a social thing until Johnny left and then I basically started sitting at home and drinking on the weekends after abby went to bed.. while reading or browsing forums or listening to music..then all of the sudden its 4 oclock in the morning and I've drank 3/4 of a fifth of rum...

buy an acoustic guitar and start learning how to play...you'll still be up 'till 4 am (it's quite addictive), you just won't drink a fifth of rum

 

[cindylou]

thats the problem with long distance relationships..no one needs to talk for 5 or 6 hours....seriously I mean..if you were together IRL you'd be doing other things besides drinking and talking on teh phone with someone 700 miles away. Plus the paranoia I had about the no contact part...I'm not normally that way...LDR bring out the crazy in me. lol

 

[cindylou]

buy an acoustic guitar and start learning how to play...you'll still be up 'till 4 am (it's quite addictive), you just won't drink a fifth of rum

lol! I have one..

I've already been thinking about what I'm going to do w/ the extra time....I already made plans to have the gaps filled so I'm not left to sit alone w/ my own thoughts lol normally I don't mind being alone w/ my thoughts but I think at least for a couple weeks I might need more company than normal...idk

 

[digimon7068]

lol! I have one..

i piss around with mine into the wee hours on a regular basis...mostly finger-picked stuff at night 'cuz it's quieter...it's way more satisfying (and frustrating) than fuggin' golfing or something stupid like that!

 

[cindylou]

i piss around with mine into the wee hours on a regular basis...mostly finger-picked stuff at night 'cuz it's quieter...it's way more satisfying (and frustrating) than fuggin' golfing or something stupid like that!

maybe I will