Sorry just seen this update i don't get on here much these days. She didn't call, i try to avoid going to the same store when she is working but sometimes she must do overtime or something, because the odd day she will be there. She is just another unknown person to me now, she has proven to me that it will never happen. Every cloud has a silver lining, if her actions are anything to go by i don't think i would like her anyway. As for the locals where i live, they think they're cocky/clever, but really just nobodies. That's not me being upset, but an honest observation. It's a bit tricky for me to find a good girl, i know it sounds like an excuse, but the girls near me... and i have seen enough of them to be able to say most without being biased. gives me at least some right to say most of them are nonsensical in their actions/goals ect.
Basically chavs that have no ambition and just want to get wasted talk trash about people, argue and watch tv seems to be the way of life for most of them near me, of course their will be exceptions, but everyone i know thinks life is about the things i describe when referring to a chav, For me, life is about science, trying to be financially secure, trying to live in peace with other people. (I don't mean like a monk allthough i don't have a problem with monks). For example, my idea of fun would be to go drive a fast car round a race track, go paragliding, fly a fighter jet if i could. Have wild parties but without the dick heads and getting wasted part. going to 1 time major events around the world now and again, and seeking fun. Would prob like to go to some 3rd world country and hang out with people, (if i didn't have to worry about my next payday) try and do something posotive to help for a little while. I did some good fun stuff as a kid, like riding stolen motorbikes whilst being chased by police that couldn't catch us, shoplifting hundreds of pounds worth of stuff from stores, Blowing apart telephone boxes with fireworks, getting pissed at house parties, breaking and entering our local school looking for food, sleeping rough and getting stoned for fun. (told our parents we wer sleeping at each other houses) standing on top of buildings in the town centre and firing pellet sweets at tourists through MCdonalds straws. can't even remember half the stuff i did. (<--- I'm not making this up and no i don't think it's clever upon reflection). So forgive me if i think going to a club and dancing to shitty music, paying for overpriced beer and trying to look hard/cool just to try and pull (why not just go up to every girl you like and ask for a shag ? saves money time and having to avoid the awkwardness that comes with being out, dealing with dick heads ect) strikes me as a bit boring and pointless.
So therefore i can't relate to all that anymore, i did all that when i was roughly 13 just did it allot better than people do these days.
Now I'm older I'm a different person i have morals and self worth, i think it's wrong to steal so i wouldn't do it, as above think life is about the things that make sense, looking for the answers. Looking to learn about forthcoming technologies in human enhancement. Like life extension, things like remaining youthful and good looking, improving intelligence, improving physical abilities improving the way we live and be more kind to each other, looking for a worldwide goal of population control and ending disease and hunger, so on ect ect. Then I'm supposed to go out and get along with idiots that think life's about getting wrecked and treating other people like shit like its no big deal, acting fake and putting their egos above things that they don't realise are more important than their ego's.
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, i gave no reason for her to say those things. Half the reason i went back is because i didn't want to leave some nice girl who showed interest in me thinking that she wasn't good enough.
I'm actually gonna have to leave him some milk and cookies with a IOU on a piece of paper....
