There are some funny ass replies on this thread. Okay, this guy surely hasn't changed. He looks me up 4 years later to complain about why I broke up with him? WTF? I find myself explaining this stuff to him again? This guy never changes!
Here is our exchange today:
HE WRITES:
thats what i never understood...if you wanted it to work out as much as i did...why could we not ever talk about the future? as alluded to...when that wasnt an issue...it was perfect...at least i thought so...i mean other than the commitment issue...i wasn't making you crazy was i?
I WRITE:
Yes, you made me very tense. We could never just have fun. You were always upset over something. It is very uncomfortable for someone to feel like they are the reason for another human being's misery. Anyway, you look me up to discuss this years later? I'm feeling the same pressure I did back then.
HE WRITES:
well...i guess it was a snowball effect..again, the thing about me that drove you crazy all centered on one thing...i wanted you to give yourself to me (for lack of a better phrase) as i was willing to give myself to you...but i never felt comfortable talking about feelings with you..you always just rolled your eyes in discust at me...so my feelings came out in other ways...like crying at weird times...i think you agree that sharing of feelings is essential for a successful relationship...our ships passed in the night at the wrong time, lol
yes..i wore my heart on my sleeve...and the shame of all this is the timing...i guess we were supposed to meet when we did for whatever reason but had their been more time between us meeting and my separation/divorce it would have been alot different i think..
i'm not the same man now that you knew...that was a really hard time for me..something you might now more appreciate having a child...it broke my heart everyday what we did to our daughters (even if it was for the best)..just a few months ago grace asked lisa if we could all just sit down and work this out...she doesn't care mom is remarried...that lisa and i aren't in love...she just wants her family back...
anyway..i was perfectly content..my past behind me...ready to see what the future held...and then you and i connected again yesterday..and i was a wreck last night, lol...i don't know what this power is you have over me and was completely blindsided by the feelings that arose again yesterday...
again...i just could not keep it going for extended amounts of time not knowing where it was going...that is my fault and i'm sorry..
that said...you played your part in the drama too heather..nothing happened between lisa and i at my moms funeral and that to this day is what hurt me the most...far beyond you disappearing that weekend while i sat in a uhaul wondering where you were...i think you were trying to get me to hate you so i'd break up with you...like you handled relationships in the past....
..i don't want to argue...i know this is all pointless now..its just that i've been on many dates since our relationship and know one has "turned my crank" the way you did - literally and figuratively, lol...
perhaps i'm in need of some kind of "heather intervention"..i just loved you so much when we were together and in spite of everything that happened and the time that has passed...a part of me obviously still does...
MAN, IS IT JUST ME, OR ALL MEN FREAKING CRAZY????