at a young age i watched movies like rambo and the terrminator (arnold was my role model I grew up without a father figure and was raised by my aunt) and all of the cartoons and toys wanting to be like them. In my early teens i was overweight and got bullied all the time even though i always kicked their ass lol i had a dangerously low self esteem. then in my teens i lost alot of weight and started lifting in football and noticed in school how i went from the bottom of the social pole to the top, but i still wasnt the best. Then now i am in good shape but i want to be in perfect shape i cant stand being another kinda swole kinda strong kinda good body guy. I want females to look at me and melt. I want guys to fear me. I want power!