Yep. Going on was just what I needed to break out of the cycle I was in. Some of it was the "on" feeling, but a lot of it was being able to regain control of some part of my life where everything else was spiraling out of control. Training is a huge part of my life. I use it as therapy for everything else. When I'm strong, healthy, and fit, I feel like I canhandle anything. I had a back injury that had doctors telling me I should give up lifting and fighting and just start swimming for the rest of my life. I couldn't pick up an empty barbell without pain and was taking two tabs of Vicodin three times daily sometimes with alcohol to deal with the pain as well as an escape from everything else that was going on in my life; troubles in school, relationships, finances, etc. The antidepressants I was prescribed actually made everything worse, so those got dropped quickly. My body was detoriating, and my life was slipping out of control. I'd had some hard times before, but this was by far the darkest place I'd ever been to. So, I said "fuck it" and decided to do a cycle. Within weeks of starting, the injury the doctors said would never heal was healing up rapidly. My strength was coming back, and I was feeling healthier. I had dropped the Vicodin and alcohol. On occasion I used Vicodin if I was really hurting, but every time I used it I asked myself it I was using it because I was really hurt or if I was trying to escape something. If it was the latter I didn't use it. I was starting to get a handle on the other parts of my life as well, rather than letting them crush me and feeling hopeless. I felt that since I was regaining control of my body there was no reason not to take care of my other problems. I was fortunate to have some really great friends that were there for me every step of the way, and I took advatage of therapy, but deciding to juice was the first step that really took me in a positive direction. Now, I feel great, I'm not abusing alcohol and painkillers, my relationships are healthy, I'm doing well in school again, and everything else is going well. So, for some people, this may not be the best way to deal with something like this, but for me it was.