Truth or Dare

[caligirl]

[email protected] i'm not getting any freaking younger

noted... but for now, K have to do. I took some yesterday, the begining of a bulking cycle... I have to resize to post. they're way too big.

 

[FriendlyCanadian]

What is one thing you have seen that still keeps you up at night?

does smell count?

 

[Stefka]

does smell count?

No - I want a visual that is burned into your mind

 

[fistfullofsteel]

noted... but for now, K have to do. I took some yesterday, the begining of a bulking cycle... I have to resize to post. they're way too big.

and when it's a leap year and it's the year of the golden dragon or when the philly eagles win a superbowl, which we can file under never.

 

[FriendlyCanadian]

No - I want a visual that is burned into your mind

Ok.. the face of Chris Gignac..

I moved away to a small shithole in Quesnel British Columbia.. probably the armpit of the world for a lucrative business opportunity.

Anyhow, I didn't even have any furniture was promised a fully furnished place..

So this guy was like a fucking saint.. I ended up living with him.. because my boss.. was a realitive of his mother.. lived with him for about a month and half.. he helped me move into my place when I got it.. which I had managed to furnish.. with coaches.. was the best friend any guy could ever have.. the most popular guy in that town, and he went out of his way to make me feel welcome, and I did, and I had a blast with him.

I literally hung out with this guy probably every night for about 4 months straight.. until one day.. I just wanted to chill solo for a bit.. (he'd even bring his super hot gf over to hang out with us, what a champ)

so I was hanging out by myself for a couple of days, working and just chilling.. I was going to give him a call.. but I didn't.. and that night he went 4x4ing with chad and duncan.. ended up getting flipped out of the jeep long story short.. the jeep landed on his chest.. and killed him.

we had a gathering at his parents place, all his friends and family and stuff, and during the fire they took a picture of us, a group of us, and there was this very bizzare bluish white glow beside one of our shoulders, kinda looked like him..

Anyhow the imagine of his smiling face (this dude was friendly as hell and enjoyed everyday of life) sometimes keeps me awake, because I always think what if I would have called.

 

[Stefka]

That is sad.

Truth

 

[FriendlyCanadian]

That is sad.

Truth

unless you've lived a life with no regrets (which most people haven't I'm sure)

what do you regret the most, what would you change if you could?

 

[Stefka]

unless you've lived a life with no regrets (which most people haven't I'm sure)

what do you regret the most, what would you change if you could?

That is hard
I wish I knew how to ask for (and accept) help. I was taught to be too hard. Sometimes I'd like to be able to crumble like my friends do. But it is too late for that.

 

[Stefka]

Any one still up?
truth

 

[nimbus]

Any one still up?
truth

what's bothering you more than anything right now?