Tren cycle gone all wrong

[Mike4705]

Tren ace 100mg eod wk 1 - 6
Test prop 50mg eod wk 1-8
Proviron 50mg Ed wk 1 - 6
Formastanzol 7 pumps Am 5 PM
Prolactrone 3 caps a day for prolactin sides.

Ok so here is the deal, I am not making this post for critique I am simply doing this to educate all of you will another tren experience. Hopefully so all of you can avoid making the same mistakes as me. I have successfully run tren at high doses in the past but I will explain what went wrong for this one

7 months ago I was in my doctors office getting some post cycle blood work done ( which came out great) before I was about to leave he proceeded to ask mr about my experiences in Afghanistan doing Infantry work. After explaining to him he asked if I had issues, deep thought or depression over the things I've seen yada yada ( mind you this was a family doctor) he proceeded to tell me that I have PTSD. Putting me on Xanax and zoloft is his only solution for this, me being completely ignorant about both of these drugs I agreed. Well I had no idea how addictive benzos could be, after 2 months of heavy use and a few abused days, i decided i did not want to take it anymore, that's when I come to the realization that I am extremely addicted to Xanax. I came off of the Xanax cold turkey leaving me in a whirlwind of withdrawal symptoms. And for any of you who have experienced benzo withdrawal will knoe exactly what I'm talking about. Ok so quitting a benzo cold turkey when you are highly addicted can lead to a problem known as protracted withdrawal, average recovery time of these withdrawals is 12 - 14 MONTHS! yes I kid you not. I'm at month 8 on my journey of recovery. Withdrawals come and go and this point, i will be fine for a month then I will feel like shit for two weeks with physical withdrawal. For anyone the doesn't know Xanax has a strong affect on supressing your GABA when you suddenly stop it opens the flood gates from hell. So the chemicals In your brain then need to learn how to rebalance themselves.
Well 2 months ago I ran a cycle of test prop, I felt great if anything it made all of my issues better, got some great gains and loved it. 2 weeks ago I felt I was fine ENOUGH to run a cycle of tren, boy was I wrong.
By day 4 the paranoia kicked in hard, while I'm familiar with tren something did not feel right, something felt different I was obsessing over the fact that I have gyno, well I dont have gyno. By the end of week one I am an emotional depressed reck, although my gains are amazing. By day 12 I am having daily panic attacks especially about 12 hours after an injection. this happened for about four days while, I'm hoping that it clears up so I dont have to cut my cycle. By day 15 I've lost the ability to function properly at home or at work, my emotions are uncontrollable, suicidal, a complete disconnect from reality, and anxiety was causing multiple panic attacks. On day fourteen I noticed one thing though this did not feel completely like tren issues, after all tren does not give me vertigo and complete depersonalization. Keep in mind that I've always reacted well to tren. Well I am at day 16 today with the realization that I have been sucked into the worst mental sides of tren, and Xanax withdrawal, after extensive research, specific stressful situations can flare up you withdrawals even 12 month after your last pill and that is what happened. I had to call out of work today as I carry a weapon at work and I feel as if I am going clinically insane. While in reality I know that I am fine, I have not injected since yesterday and I have no intentions of injecting anymore. I will however leave the test in because I know it will help. This is not something that happens a lot so I really wanted to share this experience with you guys. It was a poor decision on myself for using tren at this point although I thought I would be fine based off of past experiences.
I'll keep you guys updated on how my recovery goes
:/

 

[RickRock13]

Thanks for sharing your experience with us. It goes to show that there are a lot of things yo consider before running a cycle, and prescription drugs during or before the cycle can cause its own case of side effects once the compounds are added as you found out.

One question...once these sides started why did you continue the tren? I know you gave quit now which is great, but you had several pins after this craziness started

 

[stevesmi]

nice story. I stopped trusting doctors when i was a kid after multiple visits for a gastro problem i had and they couldn't figure out what was wrong after about 6 years of treating me like a guinea pig.

I hope people reading this can learn about your experience and realize that just cause someone has a DR in front of their name doesn't mean you should just take what they give you without researching the effects from it. if i ever need something from a doc i will prepare myself for it and suggest what the doc is to give me (for example for my sinus bacterial infection i suggested the doc give me Zpak antibiotics as I am not allergic to it).. the good ones will listen to your suggestion, the bad ones will be stubborn and insist you take something else. i avoid docs like that.

as far as you staying on test, in my experience test makes me more aggressive than any other AAS out there. so if this is an issue for you then you should stop all AAS and get your situation balanced. hope you feel better

this is why its in the rules in the sticky that you shouldn't run AAS if you are on those types of drugs. a lot of guys get mad at me when i tell them to stay off but AAS will make a bad situation worse potentially. so get your mental and physical health top par before juicing. not worth the risk and it only makes the whole bodybuilding community look bad and re-inforces the bs media propaganda

 

[nb01741]

Damn man thats rough... I've gone through the hell of withdrawals too and I definitely feel your pain. If I were you I would drop everything and start your pct. Run a real good pct and do your best to stay in the gym and work through any problems. Maybe you could just stay on the Test and if all the anxiety and everything goes away you could finish your cycle with test by itself... but if it continues, just drop that shit and go into pct. I would definitely bridge as well so you ease yourself off of everything and don't feel depressed about anything. But stay strong with your soberness, your almost there and in a few months you can cycle again with no problems on the side. Good luck man just keep a positive mind.

 

[ppgfreak]

Ignore any Dr like Steve said. PTSD is all mental and you CAN take control of it. Getting meds for it is just something Dr's do to ignore the issue. I watched Marines get PTSD and they hadn't really seen SHIT. My best friend that served with me has seen and done more that anyone I know and he's emotionally fine.

As far as the tren goes. Your thinking about it to much. Your thinking "it can make me depressed, so I'm getting depressed" I bet if I gave you a tylonal every day and I told you it would relaxe you. You would say "why what's in that pill? I feel great!" It's just the fact that your thinking to much and you think you need something.

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[Mike4705]

I appreciate all of your responses and support, something I need to get through these next few days until it tapers off in my system. I really wanted to share this because I strongly believe in the proper use of AAS and raising the awareness on the dangers of abuse.

 

[Mike4705]

Thanks for sharing your experience with us. It goes to show that there are a lot of things yo consider before running a cycle, and prescription drugs during or before the cycle can cause its own case of side effects once the compounds are added as you found out.

One question...once these sides started why did you continue the tren? I know you gave quit now which is great, but you had several pins after this craziness started

The craziness started, while it sucked it was exactly unbearable until last night, which is when I made the decision to come off. I was hoping it was something that would not worsen and that I could cope with, as tren is doin amazing things to my body in as little as two weeks. The risk just outweighs the benefit now

 

[Mike4705]

Ignore any Dr like Steve said. PTSD is all mental and you CAN take control of it. Getting meds for it is just something Dr's do to ignore the issue. I watched Marines get PTSD and they hadn't really seen SHIT. My best friend that served with me has seen and done more that anyone I know and he's emotionally fine.

As far as the tren goes. Your thinking about it to much. Your thinking "it can make me depressed, so I'm getting depressed" I bet if I gave you a tylonal every day and I told you it would relaxe you. You would say "why what's in that pill? I feel great!" It's just the fact that your thinking to much and you think you need something.

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I agree with you and that is how i dealt with my Xanax withdrawals which I know how to do, but when you combine that with tren sides you loose the ability to talk sense into yourself, the added tren depression would cause me to roll into a snowball effect. Something as simple as me taking off my shirt and being upset with my gains would somehow turn into a reason worth ending my life without realizing it. Once you loose the ability to talk yourself to sanity it is a scary thing. Their is no reasoning with this cocktail of chemical imbalances going on in my brain. And id like to consider myself mentally strong

 

[rms13]

All I can say is stay strong and you'll get through this bro. And thanks for your service.

 

[Mh48500]

Thanks for sharing the story, I know it can be tough to show people our fralities. I also kicked an opiate addiction, which led me herre. Who would have thought that long term opiate abuse would shut down your natural test production? Thus TRT, and now 7 cycles later...here I am.

Anyways, sharing your story is good to educate people in my opinion. Steve is always VERY good about stressing how important PCT is , and how one thing can throw another thing off(progesterone for example). I think it is good for people to see that a TON of research and thought is needed to go in to planning a cycle.

Good luck and stay strong!