nice story. I stopped trusting doctors when i was a kid after multiple visits for a gastro problem i had and they couldn't figure out what was wrong after about 6 years of treating me like a guinea pig.
I hope people reading this can learn about your experience and realize that just cause someone has a DR in front of their name doesn't mean you should just take what they give you without researching the effects from it. if i ever need something from a doc i will prepare myself for it and suggest what the doc is to give me (for example for my sinus bacterial infection i suggested the doc give me Zpak antibiotics as I am not allergic to it).. the good ones will listen to your suggestion, the bad ones will be stubborn and insist you take something else. i avoid docs like that.
as far as you staying on test, in my experience test makes me more aggressive than any other AAS out there. so if this is an issue for you then you should stop all AAS and get your situation balanced. hope you feel better
this is why its in the rules in the sticky that you shouldn't run AAS if you are on those types of drugs. a lot of guys get mad at me when i tell them to stay off but AAS will make a bad situation worse potentially. so get your mental and physical health top par before juicing. not worth the risk and it only makes the whole bodybuilding community look bad and re-inforces the bs media propaganda