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Advaik
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I have reached a new low in my life, I no longer fear death and suicide has become a reality to me. That is all
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Advaik
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I don't know. I guess I always expected things to get better. All my life I said "things will get better". Over and over. Now I realize they don't get better, they just get worse. Everyday of my life is worse than the day before. I just don't think I care anymore.
Advaik said:
If you need to talk...please let me know. I will listen.
I have been pretty low right now in my life...but that makes me realize something. I am bottomed out. It can't get any worse...only better.
Check your pm..
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everybody in there life hits a hard time or hard time. everybody if they put there minds into it 100% and have a vision and a paln can turn there life around. always look at what you have and at what others don't. travel to a third world country and see how you feel. sometimes getting involved in charities or helping people with aids or cancer gives life a new day. never give up and always srive for what you want. nothing worth anything ever comes easy.
Advaik said:
its mind over matter but I hear ya------been down many times in my life-----The key for me is to just like you said, don't care anymore. However I just don't care about the everyday little shit that used to bother me(I only put my energy in things that mean something to me).......As soon as you can roll with the little stuff(which is what makes up most of life) Your goals will become easier to reach and much more clearer.....hang in their and just re-evalute your priorities.....Our minds are some awesome tools and yours probably just needs to be re-worked(easier said then done) but only you have the power to be happy....It really is a choice....peace
gettinlarger
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Hey brother, we all feel like this. I know I do. A lot. But never to the point of suicide. Darktooth and B Fold are right, at least in my opinion and experience. Talking to someone who will take time out of their life to listen ... it really does have an effect. If you feel like PM'n me, I'll listen man.
huntmaster
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things always seem to hit rock bottom right before the good times man
hang in there ---- good things await you right around the corner
romans 8:28
hang in there ---- good things await you right around the corner
romans 8:28
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Citruscide
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Suck it up and stop fucking whining!
Damnit. Suicide? People like Christopher Reeves are sitting in a fucking chair, breathing through a tube... unable to move... and they STILL believe they will make it through... fucking AMAZING!...
I don't care how low your life is... you suck if you kill yourself... bottom line.
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Damnit. Suicide? People like Christopher Reeves are sitting in a fucking chair, breathing through a tube... unable to move... and they STILL believe they will make it through... fucking AMAZING!...
I don't care how low your life is... you suck if you kill yourself... bottom line.
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Citruscide
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Ok, I went back and read alot of the other comments up there... they are the level headed and encouraging options... to help a person... to be supportive...
I wanted it to be known, that my above statement isn't a flame, but tough love. Telling someone it can't get any worse will get the respone "yes it can"... but when you give a story or two of situations that are 1000xs worse than theirs... it acts as a slap in the face..
I stand by my statement.
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I wanted it to be known, that my above statement isn't a flame, but tough love. Telling someone it can't get any worse will get the respone "yes it can"... but when you give a story or two of situations that are 1000xs worse than theirs... it acts as a slap in the face..
I stand by my statement.
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grlpwrd
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Please see a dr. especially if you're taking something that is affecting you emotionally. You may also need to get a prescription to get you emotionally/physiologically balanced. Just think... this is a chance you need to take to make your life better. Think ahead - not what you feel like now.
I'm the happiest person now, but I wasn't always that way. I was miserable when I was a teenager - I was a wallflower plus dealing with bad skin and low esteem and I was taking accutane which made me feel suicidal. Suicide is never an option. It really does get better. You first need to see a dr. I am not qualified to deal with suicidal tendencies, but I do know the first step is to seek professional help. It's a sign of strength!
One last thing..suicidal is the most selfish thing you can do. Even if you're not a religious person you're leaving behind all your loved ones - family and friends. They will suffer more than you will ever know. Suicide is not the answer.. for if you are successful you will give them eternal pain.
You posted here which to me is a sign that you are seeking help. That's a step in the right direction.. I am so tired right now because it's almost 2am here, but I had to respond to your post. Now you owe me! Just kidding! Please..go get some professional help.
Prayers and hugs from me to you...
I'm the happiest person now, but I wasn't always that way. I was miserable when I was a teenager - I was a wallflower plus dealing with bad skin and low esteem and I was taking accutane which made me feel suicidal. Suicide is never an option. It really does get better. You first need to see a dr. I am not qualified to deal with suicidal tendencies, but I do know the first step is to seek professional help. It's a sign of strength!
One last thing..suicidal is the most selfish thing you can do. Even if you're not a religious person you're leaving behind all your loved ones - family and friends. They will suffer more than you will ever know. Suicide is not the answer.. for if you are successful you will give them eternal pain.
You posted here which to me is a sign that you are seeking help. That's a step in the right direction.. I am so tired right now because it's almost 2am here, but I had to respond to your post. Now you owe me! Just kidding! Please..go get some professional help.
Prayers and hugs from me to you...
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Advaik
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I think I will go see a phsychiatrist. This has been an ongoing thing, nothing in my life seems to be going right, but it's only recently that I have been considering suicide. It seems like the people I love are the ones I want revenge against, and the best revenge is to kill myself.
And maybe a phsyciatrist can give me some Xanax or something so I wont be so shy in public, that would be nice
And maybe a phsyciatrist can give me some Xanax or something so I wont be so shy in public, that would be nice
grlpwrd
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Advaik said:I think I will go see a phsychiatrist. This has been an ongoing thing, nothing in my life seems to be going right, but it's only recently that I have been considering suicide. It seems like the people I love are the ones I want revenge against, and the best revenge is to kill myself.
And maybe a phsyciatrist can give me some Xanax or something so I wont be so shy in public, that would be nice
I'm glad to hear you're going to take that step of getting help. I can talk to you until I'm blue in the face about how suicide is not a successful way to get revenge..it really isn't. Happiness is always the best revenge.
After you get hooked up with the psychiatrist and get what you need I expect a full report on how you're doing, okay?
You take care! 
Puc
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Darktooth said:
darkdumbass... i stopped flaming you awhile back because i realized it is your right to be stupid. this statement, however, is ludicrous, and liable to get adv killed.
if he is clinically depressed, or just naturally suicidal, there is NOTHING wrong with medication. would you rather have him on "some ssri" or in a coffin?
retard.
I hope I can help. I don't know how old you are. I'm 37 and there have been many times in my life when i just wished that I could get it over with. I think for me, fear is a big part of it. Like what you said, fear that things are only going to get worse. I've seen a lot of bad shit in my life. Others have had it far worse. We all have a different sensitivity level. I have laid down at night and prayed to God that if he exists to just take me home, I'm tired of this place. I've seen all the misery I care to see. Then there are days when I'm so thankful to be alive. The cloud lifts and the sun comes shining through. A good friend of the family committed suicide a few years ago. He was only 29. The pain that he caused for those left behind was enormous. Myself, I don't hold it against him. But there had to be a better way. Just get help. You may get so low that you think nothing will help. But that is not true. Let others shoulder your burden with you. People really do care.
People who are suicidal are lacking seratoin uptake in the brain. Go to your doctor or even a emergency room & go get on the right medications.
*God didn't give you life & put you here so you could kill yourself.
If you need someone to vent to, feel free to PM me anytime.
*God didn't give you life & put you here so you could kill yourself.
If you need someone to vent to, feel free to PM me anytime.
Lao Tzu
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Advaik said:
You wont do it though, trust me. I've had an odd life, and in that life i've met some of the most suicidal people you can imagine (we made memorials and honoriums to our friends who managed to create the will to do themselves in), and talking about it is a far cry from doing it.
Seriously, you need to solve your problems. It isn't so much that suicide 'isn't' an option, it just isn't a realistic option. You'll never get the nerve to go through with it, you will always back down at the last minute. If you fix your problems, that will offer better solutions than pipe dreams like suicide.
Thinking suicide will solve your problems is like thinking winning the lottery will solve your money problems. It probably will, but it will never happen. You'd be a million times better off fixing what is wrong than going for a long shot.
Advaik said:I think I will go see a phsychiatrist. This has been an ongoing thing, nothing in my life seems to be going right, but it's only recently that I have been considering suicide. It seems like the people I love are the ones I want revenge against, and the best revenge is to kill myself.
And maybe a phsyciatrist can give me some Xanax or something so I wont be so shy in public, that would be nice
ADviak,
Sounds like depression. The overwhelming majority of cases of depression are caused primarly by ones enviroment......meaning, if you adopt the correct 'cognitive tools', learn how to treat yourself well, and make use of healthy support group, its highly likely youll improve.
Takes time and persistence. Buy a self help book called "Feeling Good: The New Mood Therapy" by Dr David Burns. Itll be available at any medium sized book store.
The book outlines the cognitive strategies you can start working on today, which will help stablize and slowly improve ur overall mood and selfesteem.
And by all means, see a mental health professional. Psychatrist or psychologist. U need to take a multifaceted approach to overcoming ur depression.....assuming ur official diagnosis is clinical depression. Exercise, talk to friends, begin a medication treatment regimin under the guidance of a trained psychologist or psychatrist, start working on changing your predominately negative thoughts using cognitive stratigies outlined in the book noted above, find distractions to keep urself from dwelling on negative thoughts.
Good luck and keep us informed.
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circusgirl
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OK -i've been there, I've tried - DON'T TRY TO KILL YOURSELF. It changes everything, and you can never go back.
Go see a psychiatrist. If you feel you will have problems articulating your problems in the office write them down and give the doc the written info. Best to come with a checklist of the things you wanted to talk about.
The psychiatrist may want to admit you to a hospital - this will be if he/she reckons you are a danger to yourself and most meds take 2-3 weeks to have an effect. If you have the insurance, go for it, psych hospitals are fine, mainly full of depressed folks.
Otherwise, it's likelyhe/she will give you an SSRI. If you experience bad side effects, she/he will give you another. Remember 80% OF SUFFERERS OF DEPRESSION RECOVER ON THE FIRST MED THEY ARE GIVEN. t's a VERY treatable illness.
To avoid relapses, you then need to see a clinical psych or cognitive therapist for cognitive and/or behavioural therapy. This will help get rid of any bad cognitive habits that might cause a relapse.
I suffered from depression/bipolar illness from about age 4 to age 25. I am now COMPLETELY ok. Happy, even. Very fulfilled. It really was as simple as taking the right meds + therapy.
Lastly, not every med works or every person, there are over 20 antidepressants out there. THe doc may also give you some tranqs to calm you down until the SSRIs start to work. These are a short term solution only and don't take them unless you HAVE to. They are addictive, the SSRIs/antidepressants are not.
Go see a psychiatrist. If you feel you will have problems articulating your problems in the office write them down and give the doc the written info. Best to come with a checklist of the things you wanted to talk about.
The psychiatrist may want to admit you to a hospital - this will be if he/she reckons you are a danger to yourself and most meds take 2-3 weeks to have an effect. If you have the insurance, go for it, psych hospitals are fine, mainly full of depressed folks.
Otherwise, it's likelyhe/she will give you an SSRI. If you experience bad side effects, she/he will give you another. Remember 80% OF SUFFERERS OF DEPRESSION RECOVER ON THE FIRST MED THEY ARE GIVEN. t's a VERY treatable illness.
To avoid relapses, you then need to see a clinical psych or cognitive therapist for cognitive and/or behavioural therapy. This will help get rid of any bad cognitive habits that might cause a relapse.
I suffered from depression/bipolar illness from about age 4 to age 25. I am now COMPLETELY ok. Happy, even. Very fulfilled. It really was as simple as taking the right meds + therapy.
Lastly, not every med works or every person, there are over 20 antidepressants out there. THe doc may also give you some tranqs to calm you down until the SSRIs start to work. These are a short term solution only and don't take them unless you HAVE to. They are addictive, the SSRIs/antidepressants are not.
circusgirl
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ps eating clean plus sports are also good for helping to stay mentally as well as physically healthy. And lay off the gear for the moment. If you are on gear, let the psych know this, they won't tell anyone, they get folks on stuff like coke and E all the time.
Puc
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solve, no cas they don't.... they do however migrate the problem to an area where it can be dealt with cognitively.... certain aspects of the brain we have no control over, others can be battled with reason and cognition...
btw i know you know this... this is just an addendum to ur last post...
btw i know you know this... this is just an addendum to ur last post...
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KAYNE
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THINGS CAN GET BETTER. HOWEVER, YOU HAVE TO TAKE THE PROPER STEPS TO MAKE THEM BETTER. THINGS WILL NOT GET BETTER ALL BY THEMSELVES.
ONCE YOU REALIZE THIS, THINGS WILL GET BETTER. TRUST ME.
KAYNE
ONCE YOU REALIZE THIS, THINGS WILL GET BETTER. TRUST ME.
KAYNE
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Advaik
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circusgirl said:
Since there are only 4 nuerotransmitters that effect emotions, wouldnt it be that there are only 4 types of antidepressants? Idk, I don't know much about that kind of thing but that would just make sense to me. I'm probably wrong like always...
Also, what are the sympthoms of bipolar disease? I've been told by many people that it seems like I have manic depression or bipolar but I never knew what it was.
Star
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From all the responses I have come to realize we have a lot of depressed motherfuckers on this site.....lol
All I can say to you is this........
What if you have every intention of killing yourself but fail. You wake up in the hospital 3 wks later and are told because of your little stunt you will need dialysis for the rest of your life and due to the brain damage your attempt at death caused you will have to learn everything over again. They have slapped some depends on your ass because you are now a grown man that has not been potty trained. I ask you now.........R u willing to take that chance?
All I can say to you is this........
What if you have every intention of killing yourself but fail. You wake up in the hospital 3 wks later and are told because of your little stunt you will need dialysis for the rest of your life and due to the brain damage your attempt at death caused you will have to learn everything over again. They have slapped some depends on your ass because you are now a grown man that has not been potty trained. I ask you now.........R u willing to take that chance?
Puc
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star... depression and bodybuilding go hand in hand. depression is also correlated with the amount of time one spends on an internet chat board. by that account, damn near everyone here is a fucking headcase. i know i am.
but, it is what makes us interesting. normal and content are boring.
but, it is what makes us interesting. normal and content are boring.
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Citruscide
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Hmm... I'm on internet chat boards because I'm a loser, unemployed and have WAY too much time on my hands... but I'm not depressed about it. 
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madbomber31
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paradox said:
ahhh, ya knew someone had to become holy.
paradox said:
Please take these comments seriously..
People who is suicidal, there is a chemical imbalance in your brain.
I believe most of us have been there at least once or maybe more in
our lives..
So do understand that most of us know where your coming from.
You need to talk to someone (dr.) and I bet you will be glad in
the long run you didn't harm yourself.
God Bless..
thefantom1
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Life is a gift my friend... when you are thrown a curve, you must become stronger....... because as life goes...the next one will be a bigger curve....and that what life if..becoming stronger...... I found the best thing for me when I was going through depression was to go balls out in the gym...with that comes more self confidence and a general sense of well being........ and I also came to this board here quite a bit and just talked with people...some could tell something was wrong (kryp2o caught on right away) and others didn't..but they all listened...we are a family here...and family looks out for family....
circusgirl
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Advaik said:
There are several drugs with similar actions. For example, the SSRIs all work the same way. BUT they are not IDENTICAL. For reasons unknown, some work for some people, others don't. So for example, if Prozac doesn't work, Paxil might, and if that doesn't, then Serzone might and so on. They try one after the other. There are 4 families of antidepressants -
1. MAOI, the old stuff, usually never prescribed because of dietary constraints.
2. Tricyclics. Affect norepinephrine, boost its production I think, but also affect other neurotransmitters, which means the have sides, like sleepiness.
3. SSRI, see above.
4. New stuff, like Venlafaxine and Reboxetine, work on norepinephrine, and dopamine, but different action to tricyclics.
There are lots of drugs in each category.
Basically, they will give you an SSRI first. Because it's not possible to OD on them (you will just throw them up if you take too many).
Venlafaxine is more expensive so they won't try that unless the other stuff doesn't work (this is the one I take). Also get them to recommend a cognitive therapist, there are LOTS of shitty therapists out there, so one referred by a doc won't be hostile to western medicine (the new age type give me a pain in the ass as they have a problem with meds).
For the symptoms of bipolar illness, check www.mentalhealth.com. If you have ever had a real manic eipsode (ever wake up with a maxed out credit card not remembering anything you did for the last week?) or are prone to hypomania make sure you tell the psychiatrist this, as it will effect the choice of meds - some antidepressants will make you manic if you are bipolar. And don't worry about takig meds for months, diabetics give themselves jabs in the ass 3-4 times a day for life...
Most importantly, NEVER COME OFF A MED WITHOUT MEDICAL ADVICE. This is a sure-fire way to end up in the hospital.
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KAYNE
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Star said:
IF STRATEGICLY PLACED, A BULLET WILL NOT FAIL. JK
ADVAIK
I HAVE BEEN THROUGH MORE SHIT IN MY YOUNG LIFE THAN JUST ABOUT ANYONE I KNOW THAT HAS LIVED A LONG LIFE. I HAVE THOUGHT ABOUT SUICIDE BEFORE BUT I ALWAYS COME UP WITH A REASON NOT TO DO IT. SHIT GETS WORSE AND WORSE BUT SOMEONE ELSE ALWAYS HAS IT WORSE THAN YOU. IF YOU REALLY THINK ABOUT IT, HOW BAD IS IT??? IS THE SHIT YOU ARE TALKING ABOUT REALLY THAT BAD OR IS IT MINUTE?
DO YOU HAVE A ROOF OVER YOUR HEAD? YOU HAVE FOOD IN YOUR MOUTH? YOU HAVE PEOPLE THAT CARE ABOUT YOU STILL ALIVE? YOUR HEALTH IS STILL WITH YOU?
WHY GO THE COWARDLY WAY OUT? TRUST ME, I HAVE BEEN CLOSE A FEW TIMES BUT SOMETHING OR ANOTHER CONVINCES ME NOT TO. NOW, I'M ABOUT TO GRADUATE COLLEGE AND THINGS SEEM TO BE FALLING IN PLACE. IT WILL GET BETTER BUT YOU HAVE TO MAKE THEM BETTER.
KAYNE
Star
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KAYNE said:
Actually, My best friends husband was permanently brain damaged from one of those strategically placed bullets but lived to learn the hell that placed the barrel of the gun at his temple in the first place is nothing compared to the one he is going through now. You NEVER know what will happen.
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KAYNE
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Star said:
I ALSO KNOW SOMEONE THAT THIS HAPPENED TO. HOWEVER, IF THE GUN IS BIG ENOUGH, AND PLACED TO THE HEAD, IT WILL DO THE JOB.
MAYBE SOME HIGHER POWER ABOVE WANTED THESE PEOPLE TO LIVE TO EXPERIENCE LIVING HELL B/C THEY WANTED TO COMMIT SUICIDE.
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casavant
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KAYNE
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casavant said:
I CHECKED THOSE OUT A WHILE BACK...CRAZY SHIT. I'D THROW YOU SOME GREEN BUT IT SAYS I CANT RIGHT NOW.
KAYNE
casavant
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KAYNE said:
Yeah, crazy shit. Go to the main page www.rotten.com and check out the pics of the hand in the meat grinder.
Don't worry about the green.
You were actually the last one to hit me up.
You are still in my prayers...
B True
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KAYNE
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GO READ MY REPLY ON THE THREAD ABOUT DATING FROM FRACKAL....YOU'LL PROBABLY LIKE IT...LMAO
KAYNE
GO READ MY REPLY ON THE THREAD ABOUT DATING FROM FRACKAL....YOU'LL PROBABLY LIKE IT...LMAO
KAYNE
talonracer
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Damn dude keep your chin up you could have MY life. Can't find a decent woman to save my life....so at 35 I have totally given up. They all lie and always find someone better so why bother?? My dad has cancer and is not long for this world, he's my best freind. Finacially I'm a mess, all because my first wife dumped this house on me and left me with massive bills. Second wife just added to it, I barely scrape by even though I make over 60k per year easy. Never see my kids my second wife moved them to Alabama, couldn't afford a babysitter anyway. I can't thin of one single reason to live right now or one positive thing about my life. Women are so evil and so backstabbing its unreal, people in general seem to suck. So am I suicidal?? Heck no why give all these people the satisfaction?? I live now to spite others, I do tons of charity work, help others in need the best I can. I figure my life is over but I can help others. I'm never even sad anymore, just neutral. Car broke down on the way to my parents house, just bought the darn thing. Certainly don't have money to fix it plus its 100 miles away at their house...........was I mad?? No in fact they couldn't get how I wasn't even upset about it. Its my whole attitude anymore.........its life, life suck totally.......so just let things rool off your back and try to be happy no matter what. Just try to find one thing in your life that gives you pleasure. For me its cars and drag racing. Expensive hobbies yea but you can still have fun at them. I work, race and sleep. Its my entire life. And I'm actually as content as I've ever been. Like that movie Fight Club, you can't live unless you hit rock bottom. I've hit rock bottom so many times I've actually bounced off the bottom it seems. But now I can be content with life now that I've seen how bad mine can get. Killing yourself isn't the answer, if you really wanna do it take a few of the people who made your life hell with you. At least then you can die with dignity.
The_Mexican
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Tough love is fucking bullshit, it's a great excuse for incompetent asshole parents.Citruscide said:
Yeah, there are a lot of people more fucked up than you, advaik. Feel better???
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