Hey everyone!
I'm having a little bit of troubel deciding exactly what I should do about a girl.
To make a long story short. I met a girl my freshmand year of college. We became friends for about a year and a half. Not that close, but whenever we saw eachother we gave a warm welcome. So then a year and a half later , we hooked up for the first time. We really opened up to eachother for about a week. And I found out that she had kinda had a love at first sight thing go on when she first saw me...and I told her I had the same feeling.
So Christmas break came along, and ended up never going back to school. I was too embarassed and what not to call her afterwards, and explain. I guess because we didn't get REALLY close, and make ANY sort of committment, BUT only briefly completly opened up to eachother. But it was quite apparent to both of us that we wanted to see where things would end up if we gave it a serious try.
So I never called or have in any way spoken to her since right before Christmas break a year and a half ago. Roommates told me she called looking for me after break, and was upset to hear the news of me not coming back.
I stand here today having fully come to understand that I cannot live the rest of my life, without at least making an effort to at the VERY least re-establish some kind of contact with this amazing girl. Not too tel her that I'm madly in love with her, or anything like that. Rather, I just want to talk with her, find out what her life has been like since we spoke last. I want to explain what my life has been like. And above all tell her that I really valued her friendship, and hate that we had a falling out. And basically would just like to re-establish a friendship.(People do this right????? I hope I'm not crazy!)
There have often been nights when I will have a dreams recollecting vivid memories of me kissing this beautiful girl, or of making her laugh. She has by my standards "the most" entoxicating, attractive, caring, and innocent style of laughing that one cannot help but become mesmorized with. And I truly believe in my heart that she has experienced something of what I have, if at the very least it was the occasional though of what might have been or even just a " I wonder what happened to that kid"
I KNOW this is true cause I can feel it in my heart, otherwise I would do this. Although I am determined no matter what to AT LEAST become friends if by ONLY the occassional email.
To anyone who could give me advice, opinion, or experience I would be truly indebted and grateful to.
-Varsity
P.S. Am I wrong to feel this way?
I'm having a little bit of troubel deciding exactly what I should do about a girl.
To make a long story short. I met a girl my freshmand year of college. We became friends for about a year and a half. Not that close, but whenever we saw eachother we gave a warm welcome. So then a year and a half later , we hooked up for the first time. We really opened up to eachother for about a week. And I found out that she had kinda had a love at first sight thing go on when she first saw me...and I told her I had the same feeling.
So Christmas break came along, and ended up never going back to school. I was too embarassed and what not to call her afterwards, and explain. I guess because we didn't get REALLY close, and make ANY sort of committment, BUT only briefly completly opened up to eachother. But it was quite apparent to both of us that we wanted to see where things would end up if we gave it a serious try.
So I never called or have in any way spoken to her since right before Christmas break a year and a half ago. Roommates told me she called looking for me after break, and was upset to hear the news of me not coming back.
I stand here today having fully come to understand that I cannot live the rest of my life, without at least making an effort to at the VERY least re-establish some kind of contact with this amazing girl. Not too tel her that I'm madly in love with her, or anything like that. Rather, I just want to talk with her, find out what her life has been like since we spoke last. I want to explain what my life has been like. And above all tell her that I really valued her friendship, and hate that we had a falling out. And basically would just like to re-establish a friendship.(People do this right????? I hope I'm not crazy!)
There have often been nights when I will have a dreams recollecting vivid memories of me kissing this beautiful girl, or of making her laugh. She has by my standards "the most" entoxicating, attractive, caring, and innocent style of laughing that one cannot help but become mesmorized with. And I truly believe in my heart that she has experienced something of what I have, if at the very least it was the occasional though of what might have been or even just a " I wonder what happened to that kid"
I KNOW this is true cause I can feel it in my heart, otherwise I would do this. Although I am determined no matter what to AT LEAST become friends if by ONLY the occassional email.
To anyone who could give me advice, opinion, or experience I would be truly indebted and grateful to.
-Varsity
P.S. Am I wrong to feel this way?