Hi mate
If you really felt that bad prior to using gear, I'd definately listen to the guys who've commented so far.
But, to add my own twopenneth worth, I'd say you really need to get a comprehensive blood panel and check-up - without gear in your system - because you might be naturally T-deficient.
If this is the case, and depensing where you are and what your circumstances are, you could be entitled to therapy and ancillaries like HCG and AI's, whilst being monitored professionally.
The thing is, it's okay blasting and cruising if you're aware of any medical issues. However, if these issue are unidentified and left untreated, and you use a blast n cruise template for any length of time, you risk doing some awaful damage to your health, ultimately.
By all means, carry on what your doing, but do it properly, using the advice given by experienced guys here. They've been there and done it. Nevertheless, I'm concerned that you may have a medical condition(s) that is being masked by the cycling your currently doing. In other words, there might well be a problem which could potentially be serious, and all you're doing is eleviating the symptoms of this problem, rather than attending to it. Only time will tell.
It may be that you are simply T deficient, in which case cycling responsibly might see you through it. But, and it is a big BUT; there might be something more sinister at work that should be at least ruled out or in before doing this for any long duration.
Those are just my thoughts. Btw, I'm not a medical professional. I'm a lifter and testicular cancer survivor who has been on HRT therapy for 11 years.